Hi, I’m Aakash, most of my friends call me AP. I’m 27 and currently living in Calgary, Canada and working as a Data and AI Engineer. Over the last couple of years, I’ve started noticing some patterns in myself that seem related to ADHD. I haven’t had a professional consultation yet, so nothing is officially diagnosed, but what I’ve noticed in my own life doesn’t feel normal to me anymore. I think I’m a very ambitious person. I’m always setting new goals, creating routines, making plans, trying to learn new things, and dreaming big. The problem is that I almost never finish what I start. I remember back in 2016 during my bachelor’s degree, I used to watch a lot of movies, but I could never finish a movie in one sitting. It would take me two or three days, sometimes even four or five days, to finish a two and a half hour movie. At the time, I had no idea why I was like that. Recently, after reading more about ADHD, I started connecting the dots and things began to make sense. Even today, I’m very focused on productivity, routines, and upskilling myself. I’ve bought many courses on Udemy and Coursera, but I haven’t completed a single one. I start with full motivation, then I lose the drive and stop. The plan that felt perfect in the beginning suddenly feels pointless, or my brain tells me I already know this, so I quit. The same thing happens with books. I have so many books, both physical and digital. I genuinely try to read them, but I’ve never been able to finish one. Sometimes I think it’s limiting beliefs, sometimes I honestly don’t know what’s going on. Fitness is another example. I’ve had two coaches in the past. I know I’m capable of building a great physique, but even with coaches, I wasn’t able to achieve much. For a long time, I was very harsh on myself. I kept thinking I wasn’t good enough. Everyone around me seemed so disciplined and successful, able to achieve their goals, and I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t do the same. A few months ago, I came across the term ADHD, but I didn’t really understand it. As I learned more, I realized something important. I’m not lazy at all. In fact, in my friend circle, I feel like I’m one of the most hardworking people, always dreaming big and trying to move forward. It just feels like something in my brain pulls the brakes halfway through.