You don’t have to wait on yourself until you’re sick
That’s what I learn these days. A viral cold stroke me two days ago. I’m now home, surrounded by headache, dizziness, muscle aches, sore throat, trembling within a coat, no energy to go anywhere. But still one good thing. With the prescription medicine, I’m forced to relax. It’s side effect (or main purpose?) makes me sleepy and tired, all I could do is sticking to the bed. Then I realize something. For the whole holiday, I was busy. One day, went to a Comic Con with my daughter. She is too young to go there by herself. But the air conditioner was crazy. One day, went out for work. The air conditioner at the base was crazy again, but I didn’t ask for an adjustment. Other days, I was busy with language learning, flowers, reading, and stayed up late almost everyday, to live my life fullest. Then I got sick. Now, I wake up naturally, eat and sleep according to my own schedule, without any guilt. I don’t have to say a single word, don’t have to communicate with anyone, don’t have to worry about anything except my health. I pay attention to myself, over every other thing in the world. Self compassion. The book I’m reading steps into my real life. Before another round of deep sleep, friends, you don’t have to wait on yourself until you’re sick.