I find myself incredibly distracted when my husband is home. He makes noise and keeps bothering me. He is the reason I had my awakening, so a huge part of me can't focus when he's around. I feel tired, depleted, but even with all of this, I feel happy, I can find harmony and calm in my ownself. I just struggle with feeling his intense energy, which is very much unlike my own. He struggles in daily life, trying to make his life feel worth. I am past this stage, where I know my worth and just crave silence, calm, new opportunities, and no chaos. I lose control with him, even when I do breathe. We are incredibly different from each other from our view points, his are more down in the dumps or incredibly logical. Mine are usually look on the bright side. He is my biggest challenge, and I need to learn how to keep myself neutral when I'm around him. I know once I figure this out, I will open doors I have never seen before.