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5d • Shantelle Updates
Sharing a human moment and experience
If this resonates, good. Wanting to share my human moment and experience.
Wanted to say hello. How has everyone week been?
Did you know it has been 52 days into 2026?
How is it going for you? Was getting into my own head too much and facing my 'reality' is making me want to disappear again. Instead I came here to connect with communities and beautiful people who are out here on the journey to of showing up and walking their journey.
For me...
I am finding myself waking up from one of my spirals and regressions. And sitting with the consequences of this regression and the delays it has caused. It is really hard to be with yourself in your own experiences, when you know change needs to happen because life is 'very real and very urgent' right now. And instead of driving me to 'lock in' in changing my own story and experience it is making me lock into the attachment for patterns the self that is keeping us stuck and paralysed. And I am DEEPLY tired of these patterns and repeating the same damn season over and over again. For now it is my experience and shame spiralling and letting the grief run is not serving me. So instead I am here meeting myself and giving myself some grace and permission to be ok being here and now. Knowing I am fighting and I am here trying and I am willing to meet myself at this edge as many times as it takes until the edge shifts and I create a new normal and pattern.
In this moment while I have capacity. I am choosing to meet myself here not from shame but gentle acceptance and instead of taking the whip (again) to myself for this fall.
Instead I am taking a breath, have set a timer for some skool scrolling and community. Than I am going to watch a Giselle video, ground my nervous system, add one comment to my own community. Take one micro-revenue aligned action and than a micro-movement session for this beautifully tired body of mine that is carrying the complexity of this self and season.
That is all for this moment becuase it is all I can carry and it brings me to my edges, not breaking the edges. I am leaning into them, slowly feeling safe to meet them. Than given time I will be able to slowly stretch the edges as I build more strength and capacity.
Biggest love and gratitude if you have read this far. Because I needed to place this somewhere so I wasn't carrying it alone. As I meet myself in this season and I fight to stay present and awake enough to disrupt the patterns keeping me stuck, and can begin to weave new patterns that serve and honor the now me and the becoming me.
Love and gratitude in this now and moment.
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Sharing a human moment and experience
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