Are you the one who always gets things started? The one who has an idea and almost immediately begins to act on it, as if there isn’t really a choice — it just has to happen? Do you recognize yourself in preferring to begin rather than overthink, in often going first even when others hesitate, or haven’t even realized what’s about to happen yet? Then you carry the energy of the number one within you. Are you someone who starts quickly, driven by ideas and willpower, who struggles to wait and often walks your own path? Do you recognize that you sometimes leave things unfinished — not because you don’t care, but because something new is already calling for your attention? Then you are a number one in numerology.(add your birth year + month + day = reduce to a single digit 1–9, for example 18 → 1+8 = 9) The number one is the beginning of everything. That first impulse that cannot be stopped, that feeling that something wants to come forward, to emerge, to become. It is a strong, directed energy — a driving force that cannot always be explained but can be felt throughout your entire being. You are not the one who waits for the right moment — you create it. You make decisions, sometimes quickly, sometimes before everything is fully clear, but you make them anyway, because it is in your nature to move forward. Your strength is that you actually do it. Many have ideas, many dream, many think about what they will do — but you… you begin. You test, you try, you start, you build. There is something brave within you, or perhaps a willingness to be brave — not allowing fear to take control. You are the pioneer, the one who opens paths, the one who shows that it’s possible. And often, you do this without even thinking about it — to you, it’s simply natural. At the same time, if you’re honest with yourself, you probably recognize that you sometimes lose interest. Not because what you are doing isn’t important, but because the most exciting part has already happened. The beginning, the idea, the initiation — that is where your energy is strongest. When something is already in motion, when it starts to require patience, repetition, or structure, you are easily drawn toward the next impulse, the next thought, the next possibility. And suddenly, you find yourself with several paths already started.

I am now recording videos for the Swedish cours “Tarot Master,” the suit of Wands. It will be translated to English when I am done. I thought that instead of just writing about how fantastic this course is—complete with most aspects for each card—you can below see and read an example of one card. This is the foundation, and then for each card you also have; Tarot for astrology, all the Aces card by card, for love, past lives, the Law of Attraction, and how you interpret for the Celtic Cross. Moving forward, there will also be sections for health and spiritual development. There is even how to interpret the cards for the weather or for a car, among other things. Many wonder which card the Tarot deck begins with—could it be the Ace of Wands? Both yes and no, because everyday energies begin here, but your spiritual development lies in the Major Arcana. More correctly, life begins with The Fool and the Ace of Wands. But if we stay with the Ace of Wands, which is the first energy—the impulse that leads to continuation, the strong inner drive that pushes you forward because it is already in motion. This card can be compared to a phallic symbol. You can see this in many decks where they depict the wand in the center with stones or similar on either side. The energy is exactly like that—the driving force that can also be called desire, coming from an erect penis, and equivalent to the energy in the Ace of Wands. Fully charged power that wants to be expressed, to manifest, and that acts entirely based on longing. Not from reason or thought, as the Ace of Swords can analyze before anything happens. The energy in the Ace of Wands shows an inner urging that can also be compared to survival—not only connected to sex or reproduction. Even though it can indicate desire (and can therefore be a good aspect if you read for love and want development), this energy expresses itself in the same way—impulsive, powerful, active, and completely driven by power and survival. It can be likened to an urge or a longing so strong that you have no choice. You simply act because there is no thought, no feeling, no planning—only an inner necessity that presses until you act.

Tomorrow there’s a full moon at 5:24 PM—the kind known as a micromoon. And in May, there are actually two full moons, on the 1st and the 31st. This particular moon is at its farthest point from Earth in its orbit, which makes it appear smaller and a bit softer in its expression. On top of that, it’s in the sign of Scorpio—and it’s May 1st. But there’s more: it’s also Beltane, an ancient Celtic festival celebrating life in its most creative form—love, passion, fertility, pleasure, and creative force. In that, we can interpret a kind of wholeness: the closure of the full moon and the beginning of Beltane—the insights from the full moon and the desire from Beltane. Letting go through the full moon, and creating through Beltane. Do you think that’s cool? A little magical? Many people do. I feel like Instagram is overflowing with notifications saying it’s time to open this portal—one that will close on the 31st, in the sign of Sagittarius. I want to think it’s cool and magical, but my pragmatic side has a few questions. Why is it magical? What is it based on? Ancient culture, yes—but who created these ideas about the moon and its phases? Could it be a kind of programming that “everyone” experiences as magical, and therefore collectively creates that magic? I do think the full moon is beautiful. But when I let go of the magical thinking and stopped carrying all my decks and crystals out into the moonlight, I lost some of that magic. The full moon doesn’t really affect me—I’m in the same mood, and I sleep like a log. But for some, it’s incredibly magical—and if it is, then it should be. Maybe it’s time for you to step into your own portal of self-awareness. To use Scorpio’s mysterious power, the drama, and release what you no longer need—the things that create unnecessary intensity—and begin to find peace within yourself. So that by the 31st, when the moon has completed its cycle, you carry new insights shaped by Sagittarius energy. As for me, I’ll think about it… and knowing myself, I probably won’t reflect much further, unfortunately.

I walk away, I choose my heart From what I knew, I now depart I turn within, I play my role In unity with my soul, I grow I stayed too long in what felt wrong Held on to pain I carried on I lost myself in doubt and fear Forgot that love is always here I see it now, I feel the truth I don’t need proof, I don’t need youth No more hiding, no more delay I choose myself, I walk away I walk away, I choose my heart From what I knew, I now depart I turn within, I play my role In unity with my soul, I grow I lift my eyes, I claim my place No more running, no more chase What’s meant for me will always stay What’s not aligned will fade away I am not lost, I’m finding me In every step, I set me free No more blame, no more control Just trust the path within my soul I walk away, I choose my heart From what I knew, I now depart I turn within, I play my role In unity with my soul, I grow

Mm, what I mean is—when you’re happy, do you sing love songs out of joy? When you’re unhappy, do you go searching for the most depressing songs to reinforce that feeling? Read that last line carefully! Because it’s often like this—music affects us. Choruses stick, sometimes entire songs, depending on whether the rhythm matches who you are. Unfortunately, we often choose music based on our mood. If you’re sad, you look for songs that resonate, that match your feeling. And that can be quite destructive. Personally, I don’t like sad love songs. Partly because it’s not my rhythm (I am a country girl), but mostly because I’ve actually listened to the lyrics—“you’ll never come back,” “you’ve left me forever,” and things like that. These are negative programs, negative affirmations. And yet… so easy to sing along to when your heart is broken. Did you know I’ve created songs for Tarot & the Law of Attraction, but also for runes, chakras, and zodiac signs? The reason is that I work with positive thinking, and I know how deeply music affects us. For me personally, this has been a breakthrough—I’ve started writing again, but now I use a structure with verse, chorus, and so on… and wow, it really flows ;) I’ve created songs for the course “Tarot & Love,” which is coming soon. If I had stuck to logic, it would have been finished by now—without songs. But then the feeling stepped in, and suddenly I found myself creating love songs, based on each card’s energy but with positive encouragement. Yes, as I said—I love to inspire. I know how important love is for everyone, so why not sing it in? Imagine pulling a card for the love energy of the day—you get Strength… mm, sing along: STRENGTH – I Hold Love (I Am Strong Enough) I hold love, I don’t let go I feel my strength, I let it show I trust myself, I trust what’s true I stand in love in all I do I don’t break, I don’t run away I meet my heart, I choose to stay I am strong in what I feel I know this love is deep and real