since i’ve been on a plane and traveling in busses and cars so much, i’ve taken some time to write down some thoughts and random things since i’ve realized it helps me get it out and not need to talk about it so much and figured i’d share some of the ones i did on my phone as you never know what someone else will have to say or what will resonate with them. - shortly after we took of from panama to complete our first travel day to lima. but let me back up. on the first flight though i thought i was in luck and got an open row when there was no open seats on the plane. then there was 2 people a mother and a slighter who showed up late to claim the seats. very nice people. but i knew that was a sign of luck or good opportunity coming my way, just not yet. then we had to take an alternate flight pattern because elon musk was launching a rocket. this caused our first flight to be landing 30 min after our connecting flight was supposed to depart. when we landed we got to the gate and found out the flight had been delayed and we had time to get food. so then when we went to board and i went to get into my seat, a mom with her younger daughter asked me if i would switch seats across the aisle so that she could sit with her daughter, it was on the opposite of the plane but still a window seat one row back. now in this seat not only do i have a slightly better view but i got to see something i wouldn’t have saw from my originally assigned seat. in the sky there was this orange flashing glow, flashing on a inconsistent basis. knowing that this is going to be a activating trip for me i instantly saw what it was and named it. an Ember waiting to ignite a fire, and when i labeled it that i instantly felt it in my heart. this is just day 1 and has been 11 hours of travel but already off to a very interesting experience that i can’t wait to continue on. - well today has been a day… my friend lincoln lost his wallet on the first day and now we flew back to lima and left his bag with his passport and money in the uber. earlier in the trip he was talking about how he didn’t care if he lost money. well after a long wait the uber driver finally came back and dropped off the bag and he found out his money was gone, now he’s all upset and pressed over his money being gone and not realizing the good in the situation that he has his passport. now he’s all upset and is super aggressive about the whole thing, and i’m just seeing and connecting the dots that he literally manifested this situation and is acting the complete opposite of what he said he didn’t care about. i’m also realizing that this is not a person i want to continue to have in my life, i don’t want someone who is constantly aggressive and always talking about fighting and having a gun to shoot someone one. this puts my emotions in a whirl wind and does not align with the way i’m trying to live my life. in this experience im learning boundaries and how to set them. i’m learning where i draw the line with how other people thoughts and actions and how they can imprint on me. i’m realizing how important it is to have people who align with you and your thoughts and perspective in life instead of clashing. and even though i see him as a good family friend of mine im realizing in this moment that that’s still just not someone i want around me. i also realize this is kind of the first time in my life where im setting that “family” boundary. i know it’s not the same but this is a practice experience for me to take that step and see that boundary. he’s shown me multiple times now who he is and this trip is brining it all to the fore front. lastly while i type this out laying here i can feel my body tingling in my legs and chest and i know that means im moving something inside of me. - another thing i’m realizing is that i need to exercise me power of waiting until im sure to make a decision. i often time act to fast or decide on something to fast. there a time and place for that, but i know i need to wait for the emotional wave to clear through before i decide. i guess sometimes i struggle with that because i feel like people won’t give me the time to make a decision. and in that scenario i don’t know what to do, but i also don’t ask, and often times feel rushed. there’s power in letting those emotions to come to a settle before deciding and i need to learn and realize that if the other person doesn’t want to give me the time for that then it’s not my decision to make and i need to let that go and not attach to it. not every approach or question is mine, sometimes it’s given to us to preset in in another form to the person we’re dealing with. super random but i also realized this whole foot injury pattern is a generational trauma that i’ve been blessed to break before the next generation gets it. my mom has also had her fair share of foot issues and last year right about this time actually had a whole foot reconstruction surgery. i may not know what she’s not stepping toward, but i know it’s all related and passed down. i know what im not doing and if i can focus on that, i can prevent the next generation from having to deal with the same situations.

We won't be making it to tonight's Fireside Chat, but we didn't want to cancel the space entirely. Feel free to hop on using the link and connect with one another. The best conversations happen when the community gathers organically and shares what is alive for them in the moment. Use the space to ask questions, share insights, talk about your journey, or just connect with fellow members. If you have questions about Ember 1 or anything you'd like additional clarification on, drop them in the comments below. We'll look forward to catching up with everyone next week to hear what emerged from the conversation. Keep the embers glowing. 🔥