I had the longest conversation with myself on my the way home from work today. I may have mentioned this already, but I work at a tavern part time. Every so often and because it is a mile up the road from my current residence, I will walk to work or home from work whenever it strikes me. Well, earlier tonight, I decided to do just that... and low and behold, what is basically in my far-sighted peripheral face the whole walk home? 🌝The Scorpio Full Moon in all it's Flower Moon glory! And with me being a Scorpio and my moon being in Virgo, I felt the need to have the deepest, transformative conversation about the "imperfections" of my transformation into not just the evolvement of my person, but also with the nagging notion of this apartment complex that I've been pulled to apply for an apartment for. Why is so pertinent to the story? Well... I'm SO glad you asked! 😅 For the past few weeks, I've had this pull and resistance to apply for this apartment across the highway from where I currently live. To give context of relevance, my healing journey had to consist of alleviating trauma that was caused by my mother whom I currently live with. Now, of course nothing against her, but there have been some changes in our relationship that has just brought me to a point to where I know and realize that I cannot reside under the same roof as her (under the pretense of caring for her as my father passed away shortly before the pandemic) and progress in my own healing journey (which consisted of not just trauma recovery, but also addiction recovery) has brought me to a point to where I cannot become the person I need to be directly living under her roof. This is some of the reason for the push/pull to get this place. The previous was one aspect perspective of this moving situation. Another context of relevance has to do with the uncertainty that if I get this place, will I be able to maintain financial stability to sustain the rent. It's weird because I am worried about that to a degree, but something else (???) is telling me that even though I don't know the answers as to how that is to come about that it will... here's the odder thing about this: I'm not sure if that's my gut, my mind, or my heart telling me that...but something within feels solid about that notion... ...and that personally scares me!

...but motivational as all get out! 💯💯💯💚💚💚 https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1B3apqUnVz/

One thing I do consider myself to be is a spiritualist. This is an identity and ego that serves me in all the best ways possible and it's not one that I plan on shedding anytime soon. By this being mentioned, there has been a great deal of personal transformation that has happened in my life that has brought me to this point. Along the way and even now to this day, there is a channel that is on YouTube that I watch daily...dare I say religiously...that I give a great credit to for helping me in my transformation into the person (spiritualist) that I am. I honestly don't remember how I came across this channel, but I just remember listening to it one day...I want to honestly say around Halloween of last year (2025) and something about a message I was listening to then just grabbed me. I remember that I was going through some videos that I would like to call "Chosen One" videos and honestly, it felt like this channel chose me. Something about the messages resonate with me on so many levels. When you get the chance, please go check it out. I really feel it helps with internal directions when you are at an otherwise motivational (and dare I say moral) loss. It's helped me navigate the streets of my life for at least the past 8 to 9 months and this channel still continues to to this day! 💚💚💚💯💯💯 https://youtube.com/@eyeofwisdom87?si=QsU9xq1x6nl1wSKy

I am having that kind of night and I'm feeling rather free with my words right now... and I'm not going to lie, I'm also a little stoned, but that also will make this feel that much more fun! 😅😅😅 So... as the title of this passage might suggest, I'm heavy in the astrology. I am a very well and proud renowned Scorpio and I have absolutely no problem basing my life around this when I feel it necessary...like now! ♏♏♏ ...but as I've started to learn more about astrology, I realize that I am not just a Scorpio... it's just my sun 🌞 sign. I am also composed of a moon sign, a mars sign, a venus sign, an ascending, and a midheaven... which when I found out exactly what each of these aspects entailed about the person that I am as well as the themed archetypes and traits surrounding the zodiac signs made sense to me as to why my life is the way it is as well as why my life when the way it has. It also explains as to why I feel certain ways certain days and also why I feel like the polar opposite on other days. I feel like certain aspects as to why I make decisions the way I do and why I process things the way I do are based on the characteristics of these zodiac signs and the cosmic planetary placements surrounding them. To example: Scorpios are known to be rather sexual people... ...which I'm sure most anyone could be, but apparently, it's mythed that Scorpios are more so than the other zodiac signs. Discern that as you will. Other themes surrounding Scorpios, more so on a spiritual level, are known to surround things regarding death, transformation, and rebirth. Various texts I've read from various sources have given me the takeaway that most Scorpios are really good with helping people when it comes to change and transformation. Discern that as you will. If I may talk a bit of why I started the Street Therapy brand, it was because of the fact that it was to represent an awakening that happened with me in the midst of some of the hardest times in my life that I went through and overcame the past few years. The story of that to come at a time when I'm not so stoned, because I'm trying to keep this vibe from the vulnerable dark side tonight...

I have a really strong curiosity about something...and I know I'm not alone in this, but I want to get a taste of everyone's flavor when it comes to this: I'm going to set a tone for you. As I write this post, I'm currently sitting at nightstand posing as a makeshift desk at the moment. This sits in front of a window that over looks the front yard, the neighborhood street, the neighbors' houses across the street and whatnot. The weather right now is nice and sunny, but kind of chilly. In short, it's a nice view to look up from when I take my eyes away from the laptop in times of deep thinking. Next to my laptop, I have a tablet with music controls playing some really chill Lofi music as well a rather fantasized cyberpunk city scape display (thank you LofiZen on YouTube) that occupies the tablet screen. I've got a selfie-tripod next to the nightstand desk for when I make video content and I'm shortly after I publish this post, I'm probably gonna go grab another cup of coffee and take a couple more puffs of a preroll I bought yesterday morning. 😅😅😅 I'm also in my blue "wizard" house coat and a pair of pajama pants. My curly nappy hair is ablaze in the most bedhead way possible and my face hair is absolutely no better as it looks like black and grey plants just fighting to grow chaos out of my jawline, chin, upper, and lower lips. (Trust that I am in some hot mess glory right now. 🤣🤣🤣) But though this isn't always how I conduct my work/study sessions, they do run something along the lines of this. Sometimes I don't always have music playing, there are times I like it quiet. Other times, I may not always be sitting at my nightstand so much as I'll actually be outside on my phone making posts or reading digital books the same way I do on my laptop (if I don't bring the laptop itself outside). I don't necessarily have one definite way in which I have my study environment, but when that time when I actually want to get a block of focus work in, I want to be sure I'm in a space where I can truly lock in and get to the work that needs to be done. 💯💯💯