There's a great deal of situations in which I have found myself having to balance the equality of various things that show up in granular to grand sense of duality. What I mean by this is that I'm finding a pattern in my life (as well as those around me) in which decisions that are being made I see affecting people and situation on a micro scale (something that may affect an immediate small amount of people if not just a single individual) vs decisions being made on a demographic or geographic on a macro scale (something that effects the culture of a community or the ethos of an office space.) As a street therapist, I encourage clients to reflect on their decisions before taking a first step on whatever journey the decide to travel, but I also encourage clients to reflect on their experiences as well so as to help them with their sense of discernment when it comes to the decisions they make so that they have full understanding of who and what is affected from the decisions they will make.
I write this post as a reminder to myself (as well as those that read it) that the amount of decisions I have to make daily end up making my life what it is. Those decisions that I do have to make not only affect me, but also those that are around me and in my world. Having that kind of responsibility is heavy...so truly heavy...but I have to keep mind that the decisions I do make are to be for the most ideal benevolence EVEN IF something goes horribly wrongs and fails for not just myself, but for my team. That is a burden I am currently in mental weight-training for, and having this weight of responsibility is very difficult for a person like myself who always pays attention to flow patterns, but has the hardest time working around his own inconsistency at times. It does form a sense of anxiety within myself that I hope I don't protrude to the rest of the world.
Though I do my best not to pay attention to all of the headlines and news, there a part of me that still has to pay some attention to it so that I have an understanding of what goes on not just on a local level with my hometown city, but I do watch it also on an international level at times to see the effects of the ethos of the global economy. If I may disclose slightly, I primarily pay attention to news that has anything to do with the common culture of people outside of the otherwise "pop culture" situations that are about. In other words, I've followed the likes of celebrities and "stars" throughout my times on the planet, but more so for the purpose of seeing how they are serving their community or the world as opposed to just finding the latest fashions and trends. Silently and underhandedly, these people I follow have somehow shaped the world not only that they live in, but also my world; moreover, these same people that I've followed may have very well have been followed by many others like myself and quite possibly have had their world shaped by the people they followed.
To give you a lifelong (but vulnerable) example of this: I've loved (and somewhat followed) Madonna. There has been music that she has released that have gotten me through both good and bad times and there have been performances that she has done in her life that inspired me to direct my life in some of the ways that I have. And even though I am using Madonna as an example in this passage, I can say this about many other people in my life... from other high-end celebrities that have dominated various societies and cultures to just the local people who have been in the local Charleston culture for years.
These people have had to make decisions that affected not just their lives, but the lives of those around them...and the responsibility that they have in making these decisions I know is no easy feat all the time.
Even though this is very different from my regular daily vibe videos that I have been posting here recently, I thought I would try something new with this format...but for the topic at hand, I want to leave you with this. As you go through your day today and navigate the streets of your life, keep in mind that decisions that you make are going to affect not just you, but those that are a daily part of your intimate living life. You can truly make up the world that way that you want to, but you also have to sit with what it is you make up. If I may, that feels like basic living 101, but on a much deeper level, it's a bigger and much harder concept to grasp. Even I still have issues with making decisions about my own life, its purpose, and the direction that it's going; but I also have to remind myself that I do understand that decisions I have to make can't be made so quickly and so shallowly. Other people are involved in that decision...whether they're a part of making that decision or if the outcomes of that decisions could affect them...so it would be best to consult with the necessary parties involved before making a final say.
This may apply to group settings, but this is primarily for you individually as well. Make the decision that will help you in your best life. Make the decisions that will help you become the best version of you in your life. In rippling effect, you will do the same for others that are involved with you whether you are aware of it or not. If you stay conscious in making your best decisions as you make them and you do your best to consider the heart of others as well as yourself, the world you make up can truly be one worth living as well as one worth putting in the story book of life.
Have the best day and I love you! 💚💚💚