Don't let fear win · Spiritual Rebels

Don't let fear win

i've identified the reason of this division that plagues us.

It's not judgement of one another.

It's not our lack of worship.

It's not that everyone is stupid.

It's that we are afraid! Afraid of "them". Those who ask taxes. Those who make rules. Those who show big golden teeth. Those who seem to see all.Those who hide behind the devil. And they feel big...

Cause we believe them to be. Until we learn how to make them Cower.

It's been 11 years. i've been in the Netherlands on vacation. In January 2015 i started my studying of hacking, solving public challenge websites that test your skills. Not the modern cybersecurity snob, but the old school where you have to figure it out yourself. I was pulled in a certain Internet Relay Chat server ironically called "idlemonkeys.net" where i met interesting dudes that awakened in me some deep questions and methods of inquiry. There i started noticing patterns in how our system was built and controlled, panopticon like.

Ended up in Amsterdam after a 3 months non-stop mushroom tripping every friday.

First morning at the camp i met a shady italian dude, "ex" mafioso, that sticked to me like a tick.

Asked me uncomfortable questions, and sucked on my resources and patience.

After 3 days we ended up fighting and were both kicked from the camp after a certain mysterious dude with an amethyst necklace intervened to solve the situation. Dude calmed me down, and gave me some deep life advice. The italian dude swore revenge on his mother's tomb. Sometimes i think of that man and hope he's ok...

One day before that event, i was cycling through the streets and ended up in an arrogantly towering

corporation block with a small monument of a modern blue stratified pyramid with the top block united. It seemed to show me a complacent grin, i thought it an unbelievable display of vanity. Ridiculous.

i pulled out my laptop and poked the wifis just to see what was there. Told to myself: "Are you serious? Get out of there!". I never had almost any real world hacking skills, but i had another type of talent. So i closed the lid and let the bike guide me somewhere else.

Later i noticed white wagons following. As i was talking with a dude i noticed one of them passing close slowly.

Paranoia. That followed me through all the trip and beyond. For many years.

Luckily the Mother managed to take me into her lap. The new camp was in amsterdam noord. While i cycled through the streets, past a little bridge, the immense country opened. I was stunned. And stoned. WOW. I decided to move to Arhnem where there was a big natural park i was going to use as a lightning catcher for the thoughts that haunted me.

It healed me. i'd discovered a glimpse of Her. Started listening to the blackbird signing, like a child. Started meditating for the first time. I thought i was stupid. "WTF are you becoming a newage hippie or something?"

Little i knew at the time that those two contrasting forces would be at play in my life for so much time. Through so much pain.

Somehow i ended up feeling psychically attacked by things i didn't understand. Malevolent. Dumb. Shortsighted and proud of that.

Spare you the details... It has been 11 long and painful years.

i was tortured. Psychically. But something in me remained grappled to that Love i met there and far earlier in my life. i also remained grappled to that intelligent good-hearted and goofy dude i vaguely remembered to be. To the cunning hacker that sees through schemes. That has the means to See through.

Initially I battled them and lost.

Then defeated i started studying them. How they do what they do. Where they got me.

Never giving up. Never letting them have the satisfaction of hearing i'd betray all i love if just for a chance for this to stop. Then a couple of months ago i realized what today i figured i need to tell you: they are weakest against a pure heart, but also weak at general confrontation. They need our fear, anger, hiding and scheming to try and hijack you and take all the credit. But they cower once you really look at them with a fiery heart. They fear us, so they feed us shit. Not just food: but violence, lust, greed, egocentricity, frivolity. Does this ring a bell? They do that cause they fear the moment we realize our inherent freedom.

i spoke of them. Spoke with them. They know about me. But God protects the Brave. i feared for my family and friends, instead i realized my love is protecting them. But i am preoccupied for all of You my SisBros. For you to continue fearing the authority of an enslaver. The one that enslaves you to those actions that displease the Good. The Good that Protects! The Source of Eternal Life! Our blindness creates this division. Those things that make you have shame for YourSelf and blame the outside. So... Face them! Speak about them! Joke about them! And when they come close, look them in the eye! May they be an arrogant Boss, a fascist cop, terrorism or garbage tv news, a chauvinist boyfriend or a vampire girlfriend, in that moment (!) please remember the Divine Warrior in You! That warrior like Arjuna, unafraid. Fiery. Unconquerable. COMPASSIONATE. (and the emphasis here is not to believe yourself better than those little brothers whose only wealth is stolen from others, why should you despise one weaker than thyself? You'd only get an enemy out of an imaginary victory. The only Victory is in peace and in the effort for peace.)

Don't flinch! See the fear creeping in, and right there remember Who You Are!

Life needs to be grasped, you can't let her slip from your fingers. Life needs to see Her in you! That's the True Awakening! This ego-death scam has gone too far! It's castrating, humiliating. You Are Great, but not the you that you often believe you are. Remember when you were a child... The adventure, and the brave innocent heart. It's still there under loads and loads of resentment for your brothers and sisters. Be you a seeker or a lost soul, that Spark is still there awaiting forgiveness and caring attention.

May your Flames join Ours in burning down this collective nightmare! ❤️‍🔥🐺🐺🐺🐺🐺🐺⛩️

May God Bless Us, Blessed Be God!

May Life Bless Us, Blessed Be Life!

May the Beautiful unfold into our eyes so that we may See!

Love you All!

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