My chest and mind felt heavy today and needed to put thought to paper.. I want to share it with you:
Things I Understand at 30 That I Wish I’d Understood at 20
• My body is not a “before and after” project — it’s a living organism, perfect in every moment, here to serve me, to carry me through every place and experience, both good and hard. It’s my travel companion, an animal under my care, and I under its care. We are partners in this life, not enemies.
All those years I despised it, spoke harshly to it, looked at it with disgust, felt ashamed of it, hid it under oversized clothes, or forced it into ones too tight (so it would look closer to how I wanted), I worked it like a slave, never let it rest or regain its strength, never knew how to respect or love it. I pushed it to extremes — and still, it said nothing. It simply kept layering itself in protection, shielding me from the pain I caused it.
Only after 30 did I truly see this and begin to build a better relationship with my body, day by day.
• Not everyone is meant to stay in our lives. Most people are just passing through. Some come as lessons, others to show us an easier or better path. Some test us, some mirror back what we dislike in ourselves. And then there are the few who stay through every season — who accept, respect, and love us for simply being, even when we can’t love ourselves. Those few are life’s greatest gift.
• Life has seasons, just like nature. On smaller and larger scales. When I began to understand and accept that, I stopped fighting myself and the natural rhythm of life, and chose instead to live in flow with my most authentic self.
• The nervous system beats logic and hustle culture. When it’s overwhelmed, it sabotages even your best intentions. Like the body, it’s a companion — the child within and your true identity. I must remind myself daily to care for it, to offer reassurance that I’m here, that I won’t abandon it, that the decisions and plans we make together are creating even more safety than we have now.
• Everything I seek outside myself already exists within me.
• Everything I crave from others is something I’m not yet giving to myself.
• I already hold all the resources, answers, and methods I need to create everything I desire.
• Desires are simply memories from the future.
• I choose what meaning I give to life.
• Every mental program that doesn’t serve me and doesn’t belong to me can be rewritten — with one condition: that I decide how I want to change and become that version of myself.
• Anything in life can be easy and miraculous — when I allow it, when I let go of the need to control people, things, and situations.
• People only need a new perspective and a safe person or group to hold space for them — like a caterpillar becoming a butterfly. It needs a cocoon — a system of safety and support.
• People need to go through challenges and difficulties. Just like the butterfly struggling to break free from its cocoon — that very process strengthens its wings so it can fly. The same happens with humans: each challenge grows the parts of us that allow us to live authentically.
• When my thoughts feel too heavy, all I need to do is write them down.
• Divinity exists within me, around me, and in everything and everyone. I am not separate from it — I am a small piece of it.
• Feeling unworthy of the best life has to offer is the greatest sin. The Creator made all this beauty for each of us, to experience it through us. When I say “I don’t deserve,” “I can’t,” “I can’t afford,” or “it’s not possible,” I’m basically insulting Divinity itself.
• I am unconditionally loved and supported in every moment of my life. It is my responsibility how I use this universal law.
• Gratitude opens the portal to manifestation — but even more importantly, it helps anchor me into powerful emotions like love, abundance, health, fulfillment, peace, and calm.
• It’s OK to do nothing. It’s OK to rest without guilt, without feeling lazy, without self-blame. Rest = recovery = progress = part of the process.
• We are surrounded by miracles everywhere. The secret is to observe without judgment and to approach each moment, person, and situation with curiosity.
• Curiosity opens doors that no other emotion can.