There are two kinds of people in the world: Healers and Fixers. Healers are the ones we fall into—They notice what we’re holding.They ask if we’re okay.They meet us where we are. Fixers are the ones who get us home.They see what needs doing and just do it.They act. They solve. They carry the bag at 2AM. But the people who change our lives—and the ones we can choose to become—are both. They’re the ones who know when to hold and when to help.The ones who meet you in the wreckage and help you climb out. Today’s Smart + Funny Fusion Workshop is a live experiment in becoming that kind of human. Smart = your brilliance, strategy, perspective. Funny = your joy, your flow, your ability to hold.Together? They begin to unlock your range. 🌀 And yes—beneath it all is Tortured. The part that knows. The part that made you pay attention. We’ll go there soon. 💬 Reflection Prompt ( Drop in below ⬇️ ) Which one do you naturally lead with—Healer or Fixer? And where might you grow by integrating the other?

If you’ve ever been called “all over the place,” “multipassionate,” or the dreaded “jack-of-all-trades,” here’s your reframe: you’re a ConSynth—a conceptual synthesist. You fuse lenses from different worlds into something new and useful. That’s not scattered; that’s sovereign. What’s a ConSynth? A builder who spots patterns, stitches a model, and ships it so others can use it. It’s how Smart • Funny • Tortured actually moves: - SMART (skills + acumen + experience) → inputs & pattern recognition - FUNNY (joy + flow + pleasure) → translation layer that makes ideas sticky - TORTURED (shame + trauma + desire) → fuel and constraint that force clarity→ ESSENCE (sovereign output) you can teach, sell, or live by Quick examples of ConSynth in the wild🥇 - Lin-Manuel Miranda: hip-hop × U.S. history × Broadway → Hamilton. - Hedy Lamarr: film × radio engineering → frequency-hopping (Wi-Fi ancestor). - Steve Jobs: calligraphy × computing × industrial design → the Mac UI aesthetic. - Temple Grandin: animal behavior × systems design → humane livestock systems. - Rick Rubin: cross-genre listening × minimalism × artist psychology → career-reviving albums. Old labels → SFT truth ✨ - “Jack of all trades” → Cross-domain integrator - “ADHD scatterbrain” → High-bandwidth pattern detector - “Can’t pick a lane” → Builds lanes, names them, invites others to drive The job: turn your mixed bag (lived experience + study + scars + humor) into frameworks, tools, and stories that help people move. 🧠 A Question to Claim Your ConSynth Identity Answer in the comments. Keep it raw, specific, and real. ❓Which pain or constraint has secretly been your best teacher? Describe the rule or model it forced you to invent. (If you were training someone you love, how would you teach them that rule in one page?) ✨ Bottom line: If you live SFT, you’re already doing conceptual synthesis. The name ConSynth just strips the shame and hands you the keys. Let’s see your first map.

This isn’t a solo journey, even though it might feel like one at times. There’s a private community here. And I need you to be part of it. The people here? They’re not tourists. They’re high-performing, big-feeling, sharp-witted, deeply introspective souls—just like you. You’ll get more from this process if you share. Ask questions. Reflect back what hit. We are made more real in the presence of others. And I will be in there with you. Answering and posing questions. Listening and trying to hold up a lantern so we can all make it out.

People often ask me where Smart Funny Tortured came from. The truth is—it started five years ago when I was at my lowest, clawing my way back to sobriety, shame, and self. A coach in Santa Cruz asked me one simple but terrifying exercise: call the people closest to me and ask them, “How do you see me?” That cracked me open. It showed me the power of reflection, the necessity of honest feedback, and the truth that who we are isn’t just what we project—it’s what others mirror back. In that same retreat, almost out of nowhere, I heard myself say the words Smart, Funny, Tortured. I wasn’t workshopping a brand. I was naming my people. I knew them because I was them. What began as three words has become the lens through which I understand identity, creativity, and balance. Smart is our lived acumen. Funny is our joy and flow. Tortured is the shame, trauma, and desire we’ve carried too long. When these three are inflamed or out of balance, we suffer. When they’re brought into harmony, we find our essence. That’s why I’m here now, dedicating myself to this framework and this family. To help each of you uncover where you are Smart, Funny, and Tortured—and to bring them into balance so you can live with more honesty, strength, and sovereignty. Here’s the story of where it all began.

Hi Everyone, Something’s been rising in me lately—borne from the conversations I’ve been having with so many of you. I say this line all the time: "You before the bullsh*t." But what does that actually mean? Why does it matter? Why this phrase? Why this course? This post—and the accompanying video—is about the WHY behind all of it. Not marketing. Not mindset. But meaning. 🧠 What "You Before the Bullsh*t" Really Means It’s not a slogan. It’s a remembering. It’s the moment you stop trying to become someone better and start reclaiming someone forgotten. It’s not about adding new tools. It’s about recovering the ones you buried just to survive. “You before the bullsht*” is: - Who you were before the shame story took hold - Before the masks, the defense mechanisms, the overperformance - Before the world trained you to hide your contradictions just to fit in It’s the self that’s still in there—whole, complicated, magnetic—waiting to be remembered, not rebuilt. 🔥 Why This Matters Now Because people are tired. Tired of “doing the work.” Tired of feeling like healing is another job. Tired of self-help that treats them like a project to manage. Smart Funny Tortured doesn’t ask you to fix yourself. It invites you to remember yourself. Like finding your car keys. Or your wallet. Or your kid in a grocery store. That tear-conjuring relief of: “I found you.” That’s what this is. A return. A recovery. A remembering. 🧱 Why I Built This Because I was lost. I was exhausted. Racked with shame. Drowning in depression. And what I found wasn’t a fix. It was a framework that helped me remember who I was before the world made me perform, protect, and pretend. That’s the WHY behind Smart Funny Tortured. That’s the WHY behind You before the bullsht.* 🫂 Share Your WHY Below If you feel it, drop a few words in the comments: What does “You before the bullsh*t” mean to you?What part of yourself are you trying to remember?