16d • Inner Work
Past Lives
Recently, I signed up for a divorce class, not realizing that it was going to be very religion based and very religion heavy. Not that there’s anything wrong with that. I grew up in the Midwest in the American Bible belt went to church three times a week both to a Christian church and a Baptist Church so we were very big on repentance and living and sin versus not and over the years that side of me has changed.
It’s not that I don’t believe anymore. I believe differently now I believe in the universe and source and light and love vibration and frequency, not necessarily in all powerful being that has sat down a set of rules for us to follow such as the 10 Commandments and then if I break these rules, I’m somehow wrong and doing so.
Out of everything that was what I was uncomfortable for when I went to this divorce class it wasn’t sharing my story. The people here in this platform have helped me with that, but it was being thrown back into a world where everything that I’ve gone through the things that I’ve had to survive and do I don’t want to speak about because I don’t want to be blamed or tarnished or look bad for sinning or going against traditional Christian beliefs.
For a long time, I tried to get my ex narc to go to church with me because I did enjoy the community and the worship and the togetherness yet he refused so slowly of that piece of me changed changed into something that fit my new narrative.
Do I think that there’s value in this divorce class absolutely am I going to keep going yes but I Remind myself that it is not required to have the same faith and beliefs that everyone else does that what used to be me is no longer me. This is who I am now this is what I believe. I find peace and solace in my beliefs it feels right and true to who I am
So what version of you or your past life it has been coming up for you recently? How are you dealing with it?
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