6d • THE MIRROR
Been Absent
Looking in the mirror I have been battling with the part of me that enjoys the rat race. Ive been having an all out war with this part and it is currently winning. It enjoys the chaos and the part where I don’t plan ahead or ask for what I want. That part over thinks myself into self sabotage. I’m wore-out and beat down. I’m at one of the lowest points I’ve been at. My wife Sam asks for me to ask her for help and has offered help with some things but I’m really struggling to let her in. Especially when it involves my parents place. I want to thank the part that protected me to this point but I’m also so very sad and angry at the fact that this part exists as strong as it does. my heart is longing for help and love but a part of me is so walled off and scared to stand up for myself and my family. My 10 year old kid is scared to be alone and scared to strong. A part of me is scared to be on my own and the very thing I’m scared of i ended up there from an emotional standpoint. The whole feeling of being in a crowded room and feeling alone is a very real feeling.
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