Anyone with similar experience who would like to share?
Today, we Orthodox Christian Ethiopians spend the entire day in prayer and chanting, remembering the crucifixion of Jesus. Even though the reason for his crucifixion is not what they told me is, I still am part of all that, because I couldn't just suddenly open a war between my deep programming and my mind, but in I do it with different intention and believe. Today I have less worry about what people will say and less struggles with my beliefs, and I am half way on not going to the church for the chanting.