Death process in Bali · New Earth Revolution

Death process in Bali

Life is rich. It truly is. And I find myself seeing that more and more as I continue to let myself die.

Bali has been an intense experience. Not just because of the frequency of the land, how it has a tendency to throw out those who aren’t an energetic match, but also because of my own journey of stepping into true power.

I feel like I’ve been dancing on the edge of my truth for a long, long time. Hiding my true self. Hiding the darker power I hold, out of fear of harming others.

Because in the past, I did.

I would let my fire rip in the name of passion and self-expression, but often, I would leave people hurt. Scarred. In tears.

That’s not me anymore.

It never was who I wanted to be.

So I hid. I shied away from my true expression. From my fierceness. From my masculine power. Out of fear.

That part of me is coming back online.

The part of me that tolerates no bullshit.

The part of Thor that has no patience for laziness.

The part that holds the people around me to the highest standard, and cuts through their self-doubt or nonsense with the axe of truth.

Some people have been getting scared. Triggered. We’ve even had team members fly out of the field.

Because I’m not here to fuck around. And when I show that, I bring an intensity that many men run away from.

Yet there’s a flip side…

I am not a master firebender, yet. And in the past few days, I’ve hurt some people.

That made me very sad. Because it’s the last thing I ever want to do. And yet, it seems to be part of my process.

The first time Aang in Avatar: The Last Airbender tried to firebend, he got too excited, too irresponsible, and so he ended up burning someone he deeply loved. So he shut it down, rejected that part of himself. It wasn’t until he leaned back in, despite the fear, that he could return to his true nature as the Avatar, and stand a chance at fighting off the evil forces of the world.

Our path is the same.

To truly take a stand against the forces of evil in this world, We must integrate the evil within. We must stand face to face with our shadows, because our pure divine power lives on the other side of that fear.

I will never stop firebending. And yes, I am likely to hurt some people close to me, again.

But I’ll be the first to own it.

To reflect.

To improve.

There is nothing more to do than that. And it’s this vulnerability that I believe shapes the leaders of New Earth.

We are not here to be perfect.

We are here to be honest.

All that to say… I feel honored to have my people and my team walking beside me on this path. This community.

Thank you for reading this.

I’m curious… what are you navigating right now that’s challenging? And what beauty is it leading you toward?

Drop it below. I’d love to hear.

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