A proper introduction 😊 · New Earth University

Jan 10 • Our Home

A proper introduction 😊

Hi guys… I am back.

I originally joined this community almost a year ago now——not having a clue on what I was doing or why I joined. It was a full body yes🤷‍♀️

I was yet to overcome the fear of my potential and allow others to see me for who I truly am. I had a pound of layers on me that were impenetrable & was still coming out of survival mode. I felt very overwhelmed, but I still attempted to apply myself, when what I needed was to rest & nurture myself. My entire life, I’ve had to be the responsible one. I have lived a pretty unconventional life that I used to be insecure of because I felt like I could never relate or open up to anyone (how silly lol). My dad is an ex gangster and my mom an ex affiliate, which is something people probably would never expect of someone of my character. Between my early childhood in the ghetto & what I call the country hood lmao, I’ve grown up around “outlaw” type of people——lots of partying, chaos/fun, & instability. Mom was a teen mom & started losing her vision at 19 & is now legally blind. Early on, navigating chaos became familiar to me, yet I somehow remained responsible, successful, and sane. I somehow became like the literal opposite of everything I’ve been exposed to and the same applies today. I’ve realized I’m a walking paradox that tends to intrigue people, but the true me always remained untouched by the amount of layers cast upon me. As a result, I’ve always felt alienated and to be honest, I have been treated weirdly. It’s like I was always in a different world than everyone around me. So yes, I felt like a beautiful curse for the first 20 years of my life as I had all this light, wisdom, and love within me, but everyone around me thought I was silly. I used to accept belittlement. I’ve come a long way haha as I remembered that I’m an ancient soul that chose this “rough” life that I wouldn’t change for the world btw.

Taking a break from this community and allowing myself to completely rest in the certainty that everything is working out for me and I don’t have to fight anymore has been amazing. Since leaving, I’ve completely shifted my reality around my family relationships. I knew I couldn’t move forward until I got to a better place with my family. I gotta get the fam out the matrix too 😭 I’ve got little siblings. Although, I’ve let go of the weight that used to crush me for caring for my family. I know they’re not my responsibility, but I’m happy that I’ve finally been able to ease the tension. I moved home with my mom at the end of 2024 because of my insomnia. Something that I was a bit distraught about because me and my mom had a tough relationship. This past year of 2025 was my first taste of stability that allowed me to finally relax. I’m happy to say that it took a year, but now I am here——free of the past chains of pain that kept me bound in captivity.

I’m excited to simply be present in life after rising above all that I’ve been through and be a lighthouse for those who thought the pain would never end. I am grateful to be alive and happy to have the discernment to let the right people in. Much love ❤️ and cheers to evolution.

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