📓Daily Journal - Day 05 - 15th April - Wednesday

Aj jab mein kamra e imtihan mein bhaithe the toh parcha shuru ho jany ky bad aik larka dakhil hua ar apni sheet ar paper leny stage par gya kui ky papers ar sheets already distribute ho chuky thy, Paper ly kar ja wo bhaithny peechey aya to meiny dekha uski T shirt par kuch likha tha ar mera tajasus peak par tha ky kia likha hai kia likha hai, i wanna see, upar ky alfaz to nazar a agey thy jo thy "Money is the " ar neechey wala lafz nazar he nahi aa raha tha ar usky baghair jumly ki sense naa banti.

Us larky ny paper pakra hua tha jis ki waja sy wo akhri lafz nahi nazar aa raha tha, usi mein uski subject teacher ny usy danty huye kaha ky paper waly din to jaldi aa jaya karo, hamary hall mein aik sir hoty hain(naam nahi ly sakti unka) wo to khary khary beezat kar dety hain agr toh koi zara sa b late ho ar mujhy to wo zehar lagty hain. Aisy mouqun par danta nahi chahien.

Khair jab uski subject teacher ny jaga batae ky ye kursi khali hai, ussi asna mein uska hath neechey gya aur finally I was able to see tha last word ar wo kia hoga, zara sochien paisa apky liye kia hai, zarorat(need hai) hai, chahat(want) hai , kia hai, ya bus aik chez jo zindagi guzarny ky liye kahin na kahin darkar hoti. Khair aaty hain apni t-shirt wali tory i taraf tha , wo lafz kia tha wo lafz tha "Motive". Wo lafz dekh ky mere zehan mein aik sawal aya ar utny mein wo larka apni kursi par bara jaman ho gya. Is sy pehly ky mein apko wo sawal bataun , mein apko batati hunn ky motive kehty kis ko hain.

G to ayein hum samajty hain motive hota kia hai, Motivation ka naam to suna hoga apny. Aksar motivational speakers jazbaati andaz mein takrerein karty nazar aaty hain, aik bat bataun kisi zamany mein to mein b inko suna karti the, lekin afaqa na hua to sun na chor diya. Usi motivation lafz sy mila julta maini rakhta hai ye lafz motive. Motive ka matlb hota hai ky ap kia hasil karna chah rahy hain, kis chez ki talash mein hai, zindagi mein kis chez ki taraf dour rahy hain ap. To aien mein ar ap khud sy ye pouchein ky hamari zindagi mein hamary "Motives" kia hain.

Journal:

2:00 - 5:00

Nend ka kuch dinon sy bohat he baira gharak hua wa hai, kuh evening time ky papers ka asr hai ar rasi sahi kasar load shedding ny pori kar di we hai. Raat der sy soi the.

06:00 - 12:00

Subha jaldi uthny ky bad b samaj nahi aa raha tha kia parhun kia na parhun, kabhi kabhar anxiety itni hoti hai ar syllabus b itna ky samaj nahi aata ky banda kia kia prepare kary, Jitna ho sakta tha utna kar lia, waisy sachhi bat hai us sy zyada ho sakta tha khair waqt khatam hua to university jany ki tyari ki.

12:00 - 05:30

Paper dia ar wapis a kar tuition wali bachi ka test lia. Khana khaya. Khany ki routine b bohat kharab hai meri, i need to improve that as well.

06:30 - 8:00

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08:00 - 01:30

Khana, Revisions, slides

1:30 - 5:30

Light ar internet ka intezar karty karty 😴, aj kal mein bohat so rahi hunn🫢