I’m almost 40. And I’m more and more clear about the famous saying “At forty, I had no doubts.” Each experience of our life is a good teacher, always waking us up, pushing us hiking, and finally knowing ourselves better and better. One sentence briefly: I’ve already been a hero.
Before, for a long time, I was always anxious about the uncertain future, afraid of making mistakes, and criticism from other people. I was not ready for everything. Especially facing challenges and troubles, I definitely quit, without any
hesitation. It’d been a terrible journey for me, no hopes, no excitements, no success, no light. All these experiences coming from my negative minds, like a wet and dark hole, I hid myself there. So, you know, how many chances I’ve given up. In another words, they never belongs to me, never.
What I’m literally scared? I asked myself one night. There was a gentle voice flowing:you’d never live your life naturally, you just do it for other people. You’re alive now, but unfortunately your spirit has almost been dead. One day You will regret for what you’ve done for yourself. What a pity , you waste the unique chance for a life. When you say bye to the world, it’s super easy to imagine the situation at that moment.
My dad passed away suddenly two months ago, without leaving any words. It’s a huge shock to kick me, and almost break down me. I know it’s the time for me to face the real fear of the life, the death. I’ve been thinking of setbacks, troubles, mistakes, and challenges, and never consider this one for one second. Cause I see it’s so far from my life. But I’m wrong. Death happened, it will happen again and agian around me. I also die one day. So are you satisfied with your life, with yourself? How do you face your death? How do you live your life?
Everything is so precious. Everybody is so nice. No good or bad, no right or wrong. The meaning of life depends on your perspective and judgement. You appreciate everything, then everything returns appreciation to you. They are all gifts hidden in the terrible surfaces from the world, and don’t be afraid of them. Please calm down, talk to them, and you’ll find the answer.
Now I feel more and more peaceful and confident. I’m ready for everything, no matter what it is. In the world, nobody, nothing can beat you down, except yourself. Limitation is a road to death, you will never see the sunshine on this track. Allow yourself to give it a shot, even though it’s a failure, you can do it again and again, not for a result, for a true moment of life, for a never-come-back experience. The whole life is too shot, we couldn’t catch anything, it’s like a spark. So isn’t it necessary to worry about things that are not worthy of it?
Please try it, just for the moment that never comes back again.