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Day 1 Homework - Get Personal

i asked for the AI translate bc i wrote the struggles/wins in portuguese, hope you dont mind

1. Chasing the feeling of winning

I have bipolar disorder, and I've always been deeply attached to intense emotions and quick sensations.

I urgently needed that rush—the feeling of winning—regardless of where it came from. So I fell into several cycles of addiction: drugs, gambling, and anything else that could give me that feeling.

Anything that made me feel like I was winning became the most important thing in my life.

For a long time, that blinded me. I pushed away and underestimated people who mattered to me—family, relationships, friends. But whenever those manic phases passed, I missed all of them.

2. Ambition without enough grounding

I'm someone with incredibly big dreams. Some people might even say they're unrealistic, but I refuse to believe that.

Sometimes, though, I lose touch with reality. Combined with my diagnosis, that makes me someone who doesn't measure the cost of achieving what I want.

That created financial problems and put me in extremely difficult situations—problems that, in many cases, could have been avoided with a little planning.

Because of those impulses driven by my goals, I put myself in uncomfortable and complicated situations and humiliated myself more times than I'd like to admit.

3. Being too intense

I'm an extremely intense person in everything I feel, including negative emotions.

Even though I never seem to stop moving forward, when I'm in an extremely negative state, I find myself returning to negative habits, places, and people.

That makes me lose part of the progress I've made.

So I constantly feel like I'm fighting against myself—as if some part of me always wants to drag me down whenever I don't satisfy my own grandiose expectations.

4. Not appreciating small victories

I know that everything is a process. I understand the importance of small steps and the things we accomplish every day.

But those small victories have lost much of their value to me, and it's incredibly difficult for me to change that mindset.

I tend to underestimate myself whenever I take “one step backward,” because I focus so much on the long-term goal.

But in the end, it's impossible to achieve something great without all the small efforts that come before it.

5. The pressure of my own image and words

I put a tremendous amount of pressure on myself when it comes to my image and the things I say.

I've developed this belief that everything I've built in my life can be ruined by one wrong word, one wrong statement, or one bad day.

That thought drives me crazy and creates an enormous amount of anxiety.

I've destroyed relationships before because I didn't think before speaking, so I know there is some reality behind that fear.

But that doesn't justify the amount of pressure and anxiety I put myself through.

1. Learning to respect my emotions

The moment I realized that I was an unstable person with a complex diagnosis, many flaws, and strong impulses, I learned to respect my emotions more.

I stopped punishing myself.

I stopped pretending that I didn't care about the things that hurt me.

And I allowed myself to open up to love.

That gave me experiences that, even when they were short-lived, created meaningful bonds that became important parts of my life and personal growth.

2. Turning ambition into standards

Having big dreams taught me not to settle for things that make me miserable.

Now, I'm able to walk away from things that hurt me or keep me from reaching my goals—bad people, bad routines, unnecessary conflicts, and situations that once defined entire periods of my life.

Today, those things have become insignificant compared to a bigger goal that can actually bring me the fulfillment I've always searched for.

3. Turning intensity into productivity

My intensity helped me push beyond my limits.

I became extremely productive. I worked multiple jobs, paid off my debts, and accomplished things I once thought were out of reach.

In the end, my good and bad habits are driven by the same engine: my consciousness.

When I direct that energy toward things that are genuinely productive, I can accomplish incredible things and reach levels that once seemed unimaginable.

4. No longer needing to belong everywhere

Today, despite still caring about my image, I'm able to do the things I actually want to do.

I no longer pressure myself to stay in places where I'm not welcomed or try to fit into something that isn't meant for me.

I can earn recognition in the spaces I care about simply by working hard.

When I was younger, I felt like I didn't belong anywhere.

Today, at my age, I have become a reference point in several areas of my life.

5. Turning self-awareness into growth

Realizing that I have problems allowed me to actually deal with them.

I'm constantly working on myself—evaluating myself, challenging myself, and identifying what needs to change.

Because of that, I can continuously work on my weaknesses while optimizing my strengths.

I'm not trying to become perfect.

I'm trying to become better every day.

3 BEST HOOKS

Being maniac is fun as fuck... until it isnt

I am sober for like a year and it SUCKS

I Had a happy relationship once and now i think ill never be loved again... and i chose it

Emotion attempting to revoke: shock

(Hook 1)

Being bipolar maniac is fun as fuck

until it isnt

(Visual concept)

Me really jacked, posing, and training hard. After this, showing me in the waiting room for therapy and me depressed in some momentos

(Voiceover)

This is me, young average man, who works in multiple jobs and still have time to study, train hard, and eat well. I wake up 4am everyday and go to bed 22PM. You may think thats an example of a disciplined person and you may be right but thats not what actually drives me

(Visual concept)

Me in multiple places, my two jobs, working on my pc, training, eating while im working, waking up in the middle of the night and studying, having fun, posing, etc

(Voiceover)

That thing that drives me is my maniac state, induced by multiple stress factors in my life and by living the routine that i usually live, i probably aggravate it more, but i dont really know what to do about it, because it feels good, until it passes, and i feel like shit for a couple weeks and i cant stop to do the same things so i grow extremely tired. And by that, i become maniac again! sounds like a never-ending cycle, but i think i can enjoy it while it makes me productive and... i can do something about it once it makes me bad again

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Day 1 Homework - Get Personal