Hi Ara What does I AM mean/represent to you?

Know who you are. This has been a constant message from the C12 my entire life. It also happens to be the most important one. Knowing who I AM acknowledges all things manifest through me….not for me…they do not arrive by external measures. They manifest through me—via my power, belief structure, my knowingness and my ability to trust the process and Source itself. Knowing there is nothing I must DO to effect anything in my life is to live resistance-free. Knowing that simply BEing allows for preferred possibilities to arise in my awareness is mind blowing. BEing is not about sitting around languishing. It is breathing in magic and feeling the joy of it as you go about your day. “BEing’ is the intent with which you move and the inspired action you take instead of the ‘hurry up and get things done’. The latter represents the details and societal conditioning we have learned to obey. Know who you are. I AM the power. I AM the miracle in motion. I AM the magic. I AM love. I AM peace. In knowing who you are, you deliberately live life–instead of life living you.

I had another strange dream last night, and it has me wondering if there is something my subconscious or perhaps something deeper, is trying to tell me. For quite a while now, I’ve noticed a recurring theme in my dreams. I am always searching for somewhere I can be completely alone and private, usually because I need to take a shower or use the bathroom. But I can never find anywhere. There are always people around. Bathrooms have no privacy, showers are exposed, people can walk in, or there is simply nowhere I can go where I can close a door and be completely by myself. The longer I search, the more anxious I become. There is this growing feeling of desperation: I just need somewhere private. Another strange recurring part of my dreams is my eyes. 👀 My eyes are closed, or almost impossible to open, yet somehow I can still see what is happening around me. I keep trying to force my eyes open, but they feel incredibly heavy. I am exhausted and struggling to stay awake or fully present, even though I am still moving through the dream and somehow seeing everything. Then last night, in the middle of all of this, something completely unexpected happened. I was looking at a table when suddenly a kitten dropped out of it. 🐱 I immediately called him Sherlock. He was orange and white stripped with blue eyes. Strange right? Then I started thinking that if I were going to keep him, I should probably give him an Irish name that would go with Finnegan, my existing cat. And apparently my dreaming brain thought this was perfectly reasonable. 😂.. But underneath the funny parts, the recurring pieces are really starting to bother me. Why am I always searching for privacy? Why am I constantly trying to find somewhere I can shower, go to the bathroom, or simply be alone without someone being able to see me? Why can I see perfectly well when my eyes are closed? And why am I always fighting so hard to open them when I am absolutely exhausted? Then, in the middle of that anxiety and searching, why does this tiny unexpected kitten suddenly appear?