My mother drives me nuts. I'm sad that I can't even feel love for her anymore. I can't stand her. I think she feels the same way about me. Even though I'm not the one who's lied to others to turn them against me, made up stories to get me in trouble, promised to treat me better and only did for a short time before regressing back to being an entitled, demanding, emotionally neglectful, self absorbed demon woman. She's a narcissist, but the kind who calls anyone who disagrees with her a narcissist. Anytime I share my thoughts, perspectives, beliefs, and it's different from hers then I'm somehow the demon! Like the flip of a switch and I'm her worst enemy out to ruin her life as if I'm not even her daughter! Yet she acts like she cares so much and doesn't understand why I won't talk to her anymore. When the only reason she ever talks to me is to get me to do what she wants! I'm sick of it, I'm sick of her, I'm sick of feeling like I don't matter as a person of my own. Like I'm just an extension of her. Like I can't even talk about it online with others who get it without it somehow coming back around to ruin my life or my little brothers life who still has to live with her.