Early on, I used to thing you gotta find happiness through wanting other people's validation, hearing good things and their perception defines who really I'm. I remember in school there used to be my classmate, everyone call her innocent, who was really good in studies, perfect at anything she participated in, getting enough appreciation from teachers, classmates and family members. While on the other hand it was me who was average in studies and all the stuff I would do just because I was little confident enough and outspoken, I would question everything, they made me feel like I was the bad person and they've never seen a girl like me???? It affected me badly after hormonal changes, when I suddenly gone through all different emotions feelings. Everything popped up at once, I felt my life's about to end, im going mad, I need a medical help became very shy and quite person who would only see others living the kind of life she one's imagine, however once I understood that it's actually not about me vs others, it's actually M e vs Me. No worries if they didn't accepted me as I was, it's OK if I've never get what I wanted to feel, if I can love my self, if have the power to feel whole and complete there's no need to beg for things from outside world, enough is enough.