Vibrational Detox · High Vibe Tribe

Jun '24 (edited) • High Vibe 101

Vibrational Detox

In order of urgency

💠 Zach - I know deep down, and on every level, I need to remove the person I have been with for about 5 years from my life completely. Like Aaron said, I have to stop enabling him, to selfishly hurt me and pretending it's all my fault, and also stop encouraging that behavior by REWARDING him with my presence. Already in progress.

💠 Cigarettes - they've always been there to help me get away from feelings for one hot minute, but I don't feel good about it anymore. I quit for 4 years when I realized I needed to stop identifying with being a smoker. I had to begrudgingly call myself a non-smoker. It DID work, though! Now I have to get away from thinking I'm a complete and total mess. What's the opposite of that?

💠 Cannabis - This has been so helpful - just indispensable - so many different times. I heard one day through my family grapevine that my mother had told my older sister," I wish Sylvia would stop smoking pot. It's not who she is."

I have been being very careful not to identify with any issue, diagnosis, medicine, or whatever. When I heard that, I didn't like it - and I thought

Wait - "Don't I get to decide who I am?" I love cannabis for many reasons, I also quit for a 4 year period, but unfortunately during that time, I was completely riddled with anxiety. I did get more done daily. Now I've been using sparingly, but as it increases, I can see how it changes what I think I can do, and what I want to do, and what I feel capable of. It makes sense now hearing Aaron say I'm getting a dopamine reward for nothing. Thanks. This might take a while.

💠 Any and all casual drug use - this was my way of saying "fuck everybody else" without moving off the grid. My boyfriend who died from IV drug use (not something I've done) related those two things. Years ago I told him, in so many words, that I wanted to move to a commune or just go live in the woods because I hate it here. He said that was the same sentiment that kept him on drugs. I know that using any pills or anything like that will only hurt everything.

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