Slowing down and not hiding Irene.

I have come to the realization that I need to learn how to do one thing at a time. I'm ALWAYS doing at least two things at a time and not doing at least two things I tend to feel as though I'm not optimizing or respecting time. I'm trying to be as present as I can be even with how everywhere I am and when I'm doing multiple things I feel like I'm not really experiencing any of them. I'm not there because I'm too many places in the there.

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I never realized until a few weeks ago but if I'm not strongly focusing on not hiding my energy completely then I am blocking it. The minute I lose focus my body just automatically hides me. That isn't a terrible thing except that because the definition of what I'm doing is manipulating energy it's causing a manipulative energy to be felt at the forefront of what would be my energy and I don't like that. But it's PTSD thats causing me to block it and idk what to do to battle that other than spend periods of time sitting with myself focusing on not blocking.

Any tips would be welcomed.

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Slowing down and not hiding Irene.