I've always been that kid who's always loved the idea of being in love. But the more I got into the romantic relationships the more it took away a part of me. I'm scared of how Love makes me feel...when everything seems to be falling apart, the anxiety, the tears, the self doubt. Although at this point of my life I know it has nothing to do with my Self worth, it always makes me question...Am I not enough? Will I die single? Will love ever find me?
Honestly, the only time I've felt completely in love is with my pet dog. There are no expectations, every dog in the street reminds me of my pet, I'm counting days to go home and meet him, that one hug with him heals me.
This is the only Love I've ever felt unconditional. Maybe it's not Love that scares me, it's the humans behind it who can't meet me where I am.
I am done with the lessons, for once I don't wanna let go. For once I want all that to work out.