I think I'm being tested · High Vibe Tribe

I think I'm being tested

I watched my BF of 20 years turn down a murky, dark road. No matter what I did or said it wasn't good enough. Our friendship dynamic changed to her becoming an energy vampire and me trying to fix and help her. On my healing journey, I realized I had to say goodbye to her. That was three years ago.

Today I got an email from her wishing me a happy new year and she'd love to work things out. I'm glad it happened because it made me realize I never mourned her. I learned a lot from that friendship. I kindly declined her request and then I cried. I feel so good putting myself first, but I'm feeling the emotions of losing her. I am sitting with them to feel and heal.

Interesting that she reached out just as I have been moving out of my lone-wolf lifestyle and have made awesome new friends. She is a mirror of my old self. I feel like this is the Universe's way of making sure that I know I am on the right path―testing me.

UPDATE:

I'm realizing I didn't say that she responded to my email telling me to eff myself, called me self-righteous because I said I love myself now, and reminded me of who I used to be. She was filled with fury and it shocked me. She didn't appreciate the kind words I said, that I'm not the same person, that I always wanted to help her. Nope. She lost it on me. I responded by saying yes, I was that person once, but not anymore. I love you, Michelle. Goodbye. Block.

🙏💗

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