Today I became more aware of how my nervous system went into fight/flight mode (or sympathetic activation, as described in the Hair Symptoms Tracker) What happened was: - I was firstly triggered over a small thing with my girlfriend (which contributed to nervous system tension) - I was then approached my father - I'm not usually scared of him, but sometimes my nervous system feels unease around him, which I can't really explain - I sat down and browsed the internet for plane tickets, with him sitting behind me - During that time, I noticed many different symptoms: - Fear activation, low level unsafety - Tension in my scalp, especially my top hair - I felt watched and judged, as he was sitting behind my back - As we were browsing, I felt like I wanted to go away and just leave him be - Not going away caused my body to have increased tension and energy in my body - a helpless feeling - in the end, this caused me to feel drained and fatigued after this event My father is a good (bald, hehe) man, and I love him. I realize my nervous system reaction is my responsibility, and that he didn't knowingly cause this unease in me -- but regardless of that, I first need to regulate myself. On my own. To feel safe. In my body. This noticing is huge for two reasons: 1) it's something that had always been there, something that I felt unconsciously but were never able to verbally expres 2) I was consciously aware of one of the biggest causes of my hair loss (probably)! I was able to notice the momentary tension in my scalp, my bodily freeze feeling and this fatigue - and I have a system to describe this with! This is definitely getting closer to my balding's root cause!

I'm feeling hyped 🔥🔥. The course has been comprehensive so far and I feel hopeful, that I'm on the right track and will reach the goal of hair revival, as long as I stay determined. I think it's really good that Carlos repeated the message to "please do the hair symptoms tracker" in a separate section, as it nudged me more to actually start filling it. It's taken me a while to get through this first part, so now I only have to wait 2 days until the next part unlocks 😁