Best way to deal with a trigger and emotional response in real time (and luteal AF)

Hi, I finally got triggered. And it was a HUGE one. I have been doing a course in miracles and foundations and I was like YES! I feel amazing, everything is flowing, then I got luteal and then life showed me the mirror of scarcity and feeling undervalued. All day I asked holy spirit to help me see clearly and all I could hear was "what a bitch" haaaa so I was listening about trauma response in our last call, I'm aware of the neurology of it all, and normally when I'm like this, I punch pillows, shake, I also distract and ruminate (oops). I write all my complaints out which doesn't feel productive. Today I feel better, my friend and I cleared the personal stuff, but this shit felt real. So I'm curious about a trigger in real time. Have you found a process that shortcuts the trigger time? I was pissed all day, and I did see it as an opportunity for radical forgiveness, but I really, really went into the victim role (mostly in my head, I didn't react terribly to another). But dang, I suffered. I'm human, but also couldn't get present in that state. Is it best to just ride it out, like a warewolf on the full moon and just know Im a little insane in this moment so I can't trust my reactions? Or something better?

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