Just to echo what pointed out, I don't know what is in the air right now but in the last week or so, I have seen a number of men in my circle run from accountability when it was needed the most. Right when they started touching the flame they jumped ship and dove back into isolation mode when the pain came up. I highly recommend pairing up with someone in here and having a weekly or bi monthly check in for commitments and actions you wants to follow through on. Christopher and I do that for each other pretty much weekly and it's invaluable. Let's not have this community of all places be a place of hiding and not participating. All that is showing is a deeper shadow at play. Give yourself the gift of 3-6 months of high level accountability, follow through, and participation and watch how much things change.