For those of you who expected Art in this community, I can only apologize to you, please forgive me🙏 People who know me would say, rebellious, your not a rebel❣️ Well, inside, I have been a rebel🧐 The Lord has exposed me to myself. It is the enemy who intended to hurt me, falling asleep driving, using this to drive me to move closer to work. I mean inner drive, I couldn’t drop it❣️ My art supplies are in storage. I don’t have the physical energy to go and unpack the storage. I had to pay the monthly fee to protect my art supplies, my recliner and art shelves etc. This has gone to uncover some underlying grief. My 42 year old missing my birthday for the second year in a row. But Mother’s Day approaching is a hard one. More on that later. This is the foundational growth in life of me working to grow in life and my spirit to be able to maintain the community long term. If this process doesn’t help anyone, I am sorry for this too. I pray it helps someone in the future that is holding back from the calling of God on your life. This is my process as I begin working on the call of God on my life beyond not showing up. This is me showing up before I am ready in obedience with The Lord. Only obedience will help the movement forward count for something. I have always said, I want my pain to count for something. You’re art may be easy for you to create and to share. Please show your art in that case. Share a new post and find some community support. Being vulnerable With communication may be more difficult for you. Please share your art. I don’t want to feel bad about not creating art yet. You could begin your own community at get started with your art and on your calling. My coach suggests that I create live or video. Maybe I could walk through some of my intuitive art that empress's my inner life. This is what causes me a set back on vulnerability. I set out to create beauty but it shows my grief instead or my inner hurt instead. It can’t be read by those not skilled in art language but I know all to well what it has to tell me. What God must want to expose. I have thought it was the devil trying to ruin my creativity when It is The Lord using it for my calling instead. This is a new view of myself. So it is just now showing up in faith for me.

I was over qualified for both apartments at The Gray and under-qualified for the Lanesborough Apartments. I applied for the original apartments I really wanted when I thought $125.00 was too high for application fee. I learned it is less than usual and am waiting on approval. Now days, you give access to your actual bank account and paycheck account for approval process. Yep, that’s the truth of it all now. Sorry I am not present here right now. Things are just a lot for me currently. Apparently, Mazlow’s Hierarchy of needs is alive and well in my experiences at the moment. Finding and getting home security will free up my life to create. That is my hope. I apologize again for the significant delay. I feel living by Herman Park will help inspire my art and creativity. My apartment, praying, is on the second floor facing a beautiful pool. In the Inner City of Houston Texas. Moving to the big city is a miracle that I am excited about it. I am just keeping you all informed. I can only apologize for going through some grief facing homelessness since September 2025. I am simply being priced out of a home with my new job. And this job is My God’s provision for me in so many ways to grow as a person. I am learning more and more about criminal manipulation at my job. So, this means that I am failing forward much of the time. This is a rough but necessary growing experience. These things along with 2 hours of driving each day is all that I have right now. I thought of canceling the community until I can really be here for it but decided to keep you informed and if you want to contribute to the slow and steady simpleness, please stay and communicate what is going on in your life and maybe the grief that you find in it. My grief, showing up, is the unpredictability of life and the fact that it is harder than expected. The reminders of these feelings are deep within like a continual back story that lives in the present. I discharged 6 residential clients, intensive paperwork, and taught three groups on Thursday. I worked from 7:30am to 10:00pm since II am off today and had to get the paperwork done in 72 hours. The pressure, manipulation of clients and making mistakes making my boss and my client’s Parole officer very upset with me. I felt real attack from the enemy of my soul as testing me along with the traffic and fighting to stay awake while driving in heavy traffic.

Living a higher quality of life has become a life saving measure. I must make a change not inly to be present and creating in this community but to “stay alive” while driving through Houston traffic to get to work. The Drive: 45 minutes to 1.10 hr each way- Yesterday/I pulled over for a 10 minute cat nap on the way to work due to being so sleepy. Falling asleep has become a critical condition so I am looking for a home close to work. The red apartments, they charge $167.00 for application fee. Paid even though they didn’t tell me I didn’t qualify from the beginning. I am priced out from all the 1bdrm apartments that are safe in Houston and all over our area. Unqualified. The red building was my potential home. Base rent around here is $1260. For tiny 1 bdrm plus fees adds up to about $1360 under 7 hundred sqft. The gray building: 55+ Community I am over qualified for the 1 bdrm. However, under qualified for a 2 bedroom. Humbling and surrendering to the Lord’s care for me right now. Praying for an open door. Experiencing being lower middle class priced out of a home. I am there. It’s at my front door. However, the owner of this beautiful gray building helped me qualify for the two bedroom with the help of a friend❣️ Thank you 🙏 to friends and The Lord’s Grace. I am waiting on verification to go through and I will let you all know how it turns out. This community is my heart and I am working on my quality of life to be able to be present and active with you all and create the information that helps us all. My job is a learning process. And The Lord is squeezing me for that precious oil to flow soon. Blessings, Please pray for me to het this home and get moved in as soon as is possible❣️

I just competed introduction about this community. It is found in the Classroom Section. Please let me know what you all think. I decided not to create a video at this time. Critique to add or subtract if you feel led. All is appreciated

My new job. I am a Substance Abuse Counselor: LCDC I am a contractor with TDCJ: Texas Department of Criminal Justice. But I am employed by a company that is Contracted with TDCJ. My job title is, Intensive Counselor LCDC Our Facility is created for Male Felons of all types of crime including (those served their prison time for dealing drugs, theft, murder, assault with deadly weapon and sex offenders. It is a 90 day inpatient treatment facility focused on behavior rehabilitation. We teach new ways of thinking, perceiving, core belief changes, shifting perspectives and thought. All clients have a substance abuse addiction. My clients failed a Drug Urine Analysis on Parole. They have 30 days Intensive all day groups to attend and lots of workbooks to complete. Therapeutic Community means: Felons teach Felons and hold each other accountable for criminal mindset and behaviors. Meaning, They call each other out on their “s”. They can shift that towards me as well. There are rules, policies and procedure's called Program. I must confront grown men, criminals, to account for not following a rule or program behavior. I wrote my first incident report last week for yelling at me. Still, teaching anyone who violates the rules because that is what we do. Grace and accountability. Right now I teach 7 groups a week. My caseload grows to 15 clients plus the 24-30+ group clients shared between 3 counselors plus a brand new one started Monday. I posted photos of my trip home last night, 3/3/26. Notice the speed limit versus the speed I was actually able to drive. It wears be down a bit and helps me get motivated to create courses and live support in the community. I am getting older and this work and drive is super hard. I enjoy the work but the drive is makes me extra tired. The area the facility is located is high crime and low income homes and surroundings with burglar bars and fences around everything. I looked into moving there but it is not safe. But I am working on this community to be my full time job. It will take a while.