I can’t decide what to do anymore. Like the headline says, I don’t know what else to do with my life at this point. At the beginning of this summer, I had to leave my parents house because of some psychical abuse. I was at a sober house tied to a PHP, which was a very toxic environment, and then the PHP went out of business and we lost the house. I had to move back in my parent’s house and then I relapsed on my addiction. Then I had to go to a hospital to which my mom later said that I was doing it to escape her and my father. Then I got home. I was forced to go to a detox clinic which was really another facility, got kicked out and then got placed with a bunch of teenagers. I went AMA immediately. Now I’m home while I can’t ft with anyone, call people, or have my phone late at night. My parents are controlling me every aspect of my mental health, forcing me to go off of meds. They’re insisting that I go to school, but I don’t want to. And then today, I looked into the mirror and realized just how much of a piece of shit I am. I’m overweight, no interest with hobbies, no interest in my life, angry at myself for the failure I’ve become. I have no friends, no money, no gf and no escape from this place. The worst part of this is it that I’m addicted to all of this pain. Becuase I don’t know what else to feel or do. I don’t know if I’ll ever get in shape, turn my life around or get the social life I want. Everything costs money that I don’t have, I’m too neurodivergent to socialize to the point I’ve stopped going out and I quit therapy because my therapist wasn’t being accommodating. I’m tired of being a loser, but at the same time, it’s all I know. Clearly this guy is not going to get anything wants, not even the girl. No matter how badly I want it, I know that it will never happen. Because every effort I give, it diminishes like that. So at this point, I quit. I should just be in a hospital for the rest of my life at this point

Hey, everyone. Hope all is well with you. I had a lot of bad few weeks. First the manger at my sober house relapsed and we had to kick him out. Then, we had two more guys leave, well being forced to leave because of transphobic behavior, then my PHP got shut down and all of us got kicked out, causing us to lose the house and for me to move back in with my parents. Then, I relapsed twice today and I tried being flirty with a girl, and I got rejected.(She was lying and I could tell). And to add on, I had a bad therapy session discussing my dating history. I’m debating on getting coaching for my dating life as well as for my social life. But I don’t know if I should do it. I’m really lost right now and I need support and guidance. Between this setback and all the money I own, I don’t know how I can move forward with this. I can feel the signs in my body to focus on me as well as my brain. Time is of the essence here. I can’t waste any of my youth being this broke and out of shape. My parents are continuing to be narcissistic and control every aspect of my life, after they claimed they wanted to help me and fix our relationship. I’m at the point where I wanna scream and just numb myself again, but I know that’s the last thing I need to do. Idk if I’m being a coward or not, but idk why the issues aren’t being fixed. I see the other side, but the bridge looks unstable and there is fire engulfing it. I feel bad for myself. Everything is hitting me all at once. I know what I have to do but I can’t make that first step. I just wanna cry rn and seek some level of psychical relief. This sucks

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Hey, guys hope all is well with you. Made it to three weeks without relapsing and I now have a job that pays well. I’m at a PHP as well and see a therapist regularly. My next goals are to continue these things and get in contact with some social services for housing. I’m still keeping my promise with Alexy and still not dating anyone at the moment. I get tempted to ask girls often, but I snap myself out of it enough just in time. I wanted to ask all of you is me being motivated by having a girlfriend again a good or bad thing? I know I have to do these things for me, but I can’t help but ponder this question. Let me know your thoughts