New Year’s Eve · Breakups to Beasts

New Year’s Eve

It’s New Year’s Eve an I can’t help but to reflect on this year this year sucked I met the strongest and the most broken defeated version of myself I can’t stop thinking about my ex and how cruel she was in the way she left me and despite all the pain and ruin she put me through the way she just moved on quickly erased my existence from her life despite all the intimate and close moments we shared the laughs the highs and lows I don’t hate her I’m still madly in love with even though I wish to not be it would be easier to hate her but I can’t and even though I know she will never come back nor do I want her back I wish she never had left she taught me the most painful lesson ever I don’t know that I’ll ever trust again or love again because even if she doesn’t want it she still has my heart and I hate that I don’t know what to feel I want to leave her behind in 2025 but I feel like I’m going to carry her into the new year I miss her terribly but I know I have to keep moving forward

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New Year’s Eve