It’s been a little over a month since my fiancé of three years left me, I saw him on the 30th, we shared our last intimate hug. My friend and I went out for new years eve, I tried to enjoy it but all I could think about was how he’s not there with me, guys tried to talk to me but I felt guilty. I try to take it day by day and move on but it feels like there’s always something pulling me back to him no matter how hard I try to forget. When the clock struck 12:00 I broke down and cried as I know that he might be gone forever. I try to stay strong in prayer, but it feels like whatever I’m praying for the opposite happens, and I know that shouldn’t discourage me but it does and I truly need help, because my only wish for this year is that we find our way back to each other and to be stronger than ever. But it feels like I’m holding on to something that might never happen😭