Makis Exploration Jourpri · Blueprint Connect

Makis Exploration Jourpri

…some of my faces I went through that brought me to exactly where I am atm.

I remember a few years ago, I had a deep urge towards exploring who I am, how I function, what I like — like really like. What’s my passion? What do I want? What do I like to do in my free time, what excites me — just by myself, when no one’s watching. What would I do if no one would join me and it would make me truly happy. How and when do I feel alive, how does it show? Why am I not fulfilled (the way it was back then) in that moment. Why am I in pain? Both — some parts of my body, some of my mind — connected through thoughts and feelings.

These questions emerged (or I noticed them) within a period of time and not just through thought, but also through instinct, intuition and direction. Like invitation waves. Some kind of subtle and soft, while others were crushing in and just taking me along for the ride. Both felt right, but the journey hit differently.

A lot of what didn’t feel right or aligned with me were things I wasn’t in control of (at least thought so), or wasn’t aware that I was acting as a passenger.

Well, the answer to all those questions back then was — I have no f*cking idea. And with that answer, a lot of shame, guilt, frustration and sadness came along. My inner critic was about to judge me so hard for not knowing and not realizing earlier — or even letting it happen. That part wanted to compare myself to others instantly, to not give myself a further chance to explore from a driver-seat point of view. That felt more like the crushing wave — my thoughts (that came with those feelings) about my realizations and the expansion of my awareness of what lies within my power. At the same time, curiosity, excitement and openness showed themselves.

I remember talking to a friend and we were both like, nahhh, that’s not it, is it? Something’s off. What can we change or what do we want to change? We decided to take this year as our “healing year” — taking care of ourselves. After scrolling through Instagram and chatting a bit, we randomly booked a spinal energetics session. I remember the energy of that decision — that curiosity, openness and excitement. I felt it through many exploratory journeys.

At the beginning of that year, I ordered art supplies — canvases, brushes and paints. With that, I set a new intention within my home. Everybody who entered it that year painted a picture with me — well, on their own, but joining in on doing art together. I took a Polaroid of everyone with their art and hung it up in our entryway. I started decorating it nicely and it kind of became my first adult art project — one that I initiated myself and continued throughout the whole year and truly enjoyed, no matter outside opinions (not like I forced anyone to — my excitement came fully from within).

I started taking singing lessons and explored my voice and its possibilities.

I explored acupuncture and integrative health assessments, as I had grown deeply tired of a symptom-focused approach to medicine — driven by this recurring question:

Why do I often suppress, rush and override my body instead of listening to what it’s trying to communicate?

I explored and played with my diet — more in the sense of: what does my body really want, what truly feels good and nourishing?

I got to know fasting (water fasting), read about it, tried it, felt how my body reacted and noticed what changed.

I got more into reading personal development books — books about mindset, success and conscious creation (more like dove into it, since I started so many I never finished — podcasts worked better for me, lol).

I started exploring somatic practices — breathwork, meditation, somatic experiencing, yoga..

I tried rolfing and craniosacral therapy.

I started a facial-based massage program — drawing from fascia work, structural integration, osteopathic principles, Japanese medicine — which helped me further understand how to connect with my body and truly feel it. This opened a deeper path into exploring massage and bodywork as a whole.

A Reiki course in Thailand expanded this awareness even more.

It helped me understand or connect, on another level (an energetic level), what I had already begun to sense through massage — a deepened body awareness and a more intuitive way of feeling and perceiving.

I explored plant medicine.

I started writing about things that interest me on Medium.

I spent three months in Thailand.

I began exploring tantra.

I started my Jourpri social media account.

I got to know and practice 5Rhythms and ecstatic dance.

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In life, one thing always leads to so many more and change is always present.

And my path of exploration is continuing — it always has, is and always will. And this is one of the things I love to fill Blueprint Connect with, this ongoing exploration that happens simply by living, noticing and following what feels true.

Exploring and connecting — with ourselves, nature, other beings, whatever it is — within and through our very own, individual way of living.

What explorations have shaped the blueprint of your life?

If something comes up, you’re welcome to share.

Love,

T Maki ✨

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