Makis Exploration Jourpri
…some of my faces I went through that brought me to exactly where I am atm. I remember a few years ago, I had a deep urge towards exploring who I am, how I function, what I like — like really like. What’s my passion? What do I want? What do I like to do in my free time, what excites me — just by myself, when no one’s watching. What would I do if no one would join me and it would make me truly happy. How and when do I feel alive, how does it show? Why am I not fulfilled (the way it was back then) in that moment. Why am I in pain? Both — some parts of my body, some of my mind — connected through thoughts and feelings. These questions emerged (or I noticed them) within a period of time and not just through thought, but also through instinct, intuition and direction. Like invitation waves. Some kind of subtle and soft, while others were crushing in and just taking me along for the ride. Both felt right, but the journey hit differently. A lot of what didn’t feel right or aligned with me were things I wasn’t in control of (at least thought so), or wasn’t aware that I was acting as a passenger. Well, the answer to all those questions back then was — I have no f*cking idea. And with that answer, a lot of shame, guilt, frustration and sadness came along. My inner critic was about to judge me so hard for not knowing and not realizing earlier — or even letting it happen. That part wanted to compare myself to others instantly, to not give myself a further chance to explore from a driver-seat point of view. That felt more like the crushing wave — my thoughts (that came with those feelings) about my realizations and the expansion of my awareness of what lies within my power. At the same time, curiosity, excitement and openness showed themselves. I remember talking to a friend and we were both like, nahhh, that’s not it, is it? Something’s off. What can we change or what do we want to change? We decided to take this year as our “healing year” — taking care of ourselves. After scrolling through Instagram and chatting a bit, we randomly booked a spinal energetics session. I remember the energy of that decision — that curiosity, openness and excitement. I felt it through many exploratory journeys.