Something weird happened just this morning. So my partner told me he is exhausted of the loop I have been telling him about that we keep finding ourselves in. Instead of me saying I told you the same thing over and over which is a pattern I usually fall into reminding them that I told them I felt this and been dismissed; instead today I just laughed. Not in front of him but in my head and just kept quiet 😫 now I feel bad and falling into the pattern of self blame