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Online shopping

I will often get into moments where I will go online shopping online, add things to my cart, and come back to it now and then. I then do it with other stores until I have done a giant shopping spree, but I don't check out because my bank account doesn't match the balance.

I don't even realize when I'm doing it sometimes. I know it's a stress response but I know also it can happen when I've been living in restriction due to my budget and wanting to treat myself.

I often do as well, but my question is how can I do this habit without it being in an energy of, "Man, I really *want* these things," and having thoughts like, "I wish I had this amount" or visualizing the day I can easily check out thousands of dollars worth of items without a blink of an eye.

The second one is closer to where I think the answer is (visualizing when this is no big deal and common place). But something about the way I'm doing it still feels like the energy is far away or in "one-day" land just outside of my reach. I think there's a lot of my life that I live visualizing what I want, but has that energy of one day/ just barely outside of my reach - So close to where it feels tangible but also it doesn't ever materialize.

I'm totally open to feedback!

@Chris Grieder

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