If you relapse, which you most likely will, yes. It does suck.
You probably feel like shit, that you let yourself down AGAIN, even after you did this new thing, whatever that might be, and put all your faith and hope in it.
"I am going to follow this new routine where I meditate and journal every morning, and after work when I get home I am going straight to the gym!"
You put so much faith in this new path you have taken, so when you do eventually relapse in one of the 1000 ways a relapse can sneak up on you... you feel like your heart sinks.
I've been there brother man.
And even though it sucks bad, it does not have to be a big failure.
What I mean by this is that a relapse REVEALS information that the addicted version of yourself is using against you.
Yes, maybe you had a new awesome routine that keeps you on track. But the relapse came from somewhere. Was it the result of an external trigger? Was it internal? Which emotion was it based on? Anxiety? Ok, why are you anxious?
Ask questions. Understand. Adjust. Improve.
Do the method I teach to overcome urges in the moment, but if a relapse slips through either way, then there is a REASON for that. Find that reason and patch it.
That is why I am asking you guys.
What information can you bring forth from your last relapse? What can that teach you?