I am going to spend time before bed tonight Reading Ecclesiastes

Powerful message. Thank you for sharing 💛

Holy Moley, I just got caught up on the devotions this week! 🙏 Grateful for you doing these devotions, so many light bulb moments hearing the things you shared. Thank you !

@Jaimee Anderson 💛 Thank you, I definitely got a bit off course Tuesday but back to it, I miss you too. See you soon 🙂

I feel like I have been under spiritual attack the last week, my Mom said the devil is working overtime since I have been spending time in devotion and trying to get closer to God. It's affecting my sleep and spiking anxiety levels. I have gone through this shedding process this last year. It's alot of layers and things that came to light, things I tolerate, my lack of boundaries and lack of self respect and accepting lopsided friendships that had been unreciprocal for years but I always just made excuses that was just how they were because I did not want to let go of those friendships because we had such a long history. The thing is I realized when I stopped reaching out our friendships seized to exist. That was a hard truth to swallow but I never want unequally yoked friendships again. I would rather have a small circle of true blue friends than a large group of fairweather friends. Only God knew what I needed when I needed it and he brought me to places in the right timing to meet new people and slowly start to build some new healthy friendships.

I don't even know what a healthy relationship feels like with a man. I mean I have heard about what it should look like but not experienced it so find it hard to relate too. That's probably one of my biggest obstacles and struggles. My pattern is I gravitate towards or attract men that are wrong for me, get emotionally attached too soon. Being an introvert and very sensitive to rejection, I find it difficult to bounce back when it keeps happening. I know it is my choice, accept and take accountability for my mistakes but it doesn't seem to change the outcome. So it is easier to be alone and not even try again. I do understand why alot of Women choose to stay single these days. I had no idea how much the dating scene had changed since early 2000s, honestly it's not enjoyable at all. I want to time warp back to the oldschool ways of real phone call conversation and in person interactions. Anyways, I have decided not to date so it's kind of a mute point.