I planned on hiding this but it's exactly why I need to share it. Last night i caved and got a doordash of Crumbl cookies 🍪 I had 650 calories left in the day and wanted to enjoy something sweet. But then my monkey food addict brain took over and instead of just enjoying some snack at home. I ordered doordash and wanted to try Crumbl. Something I had been craving to try while doing 75Hard. Smallest order they had was for four cookies. I kept justifying it and said I'd order it for the family and have one cookie which was in the calorie count for the day. I had put my 2 year old to bed, and my wife and stepdaughter were out. I was alone. And the order arrived. I didn't even savor it. I made sure to have something going on TV because i needed a distraction from what I knew I was about to do. Once i bit the first cookie I instantly devoured two cookies. Then I felt shame that I didnt want my family to see that I ordered it. But I couldn't just throw this box of cookies out I just paid $40 to have delivered... so I ate the third cookie and even though i felt like shit... I bit into the last cookie and threw it away. I hid it from my family and this is what I have been thinking about all morning. Im noticing the pattern where i break EVERY time I come off a diet. And i cannot let this happen again. This is the first time I come out and share this kind of "behind closed door" moments with anyone. I have an unhealthy underlying relationship with food and with this space and just being able to share... I know I will be able to control it. See you at noon. @Steve Webb @Brandon Mehrgut