I had a conversation with a close friend a long while ago, the topic of discussion was checklist tasks. Is it inevitable that everything good, at some stage, feels like you're just checking a box? For the first time since I founded The Library, we missed a submission on Friday. To an extent this post right now is just checking a box: To convince myself that my heart remains in The Library, that I am still committed to the cause. What about friendship? When time is constricted, when the stakes are high, and the pressure is on, making time to socialise can feel like you're just keeping the contacts warm. What about God? Is a scheduled prayer when you don't feel like it ok? It certainly feels less than an enthusiastic period of worship. Are these lulls necessary? Are they bad? When a good thing feels like a checklist task, what are we to do? Is a half-hearted prayer better than no prayer at all? Is a deflated rendezvous better than sitting in your room alone? Is a short and late submission better than sacking it off altogether? Maybe I don't like that it feels like a checklist task, but maybe that's all I can muster right now. I know what life is like when I am at 100%, but maybe this is 100% of my capacity right now.