Ok everyone, anyone? I don't know if anyone will even notice me. But if ya don't well then why am I nervous to even start this? Good question right? Sadly it just popped in my head Sinws writing this, so I figured I'll just put it in (lol). I'm Travis bickel and I'm 43 and after 20 some odd years living amongst the world all over the u.s. being the epitome of everything people say about a preachers kid (and bringing that persona to true form) I'mback home after all this time and I'm stuck. I don't want y liveday y damnit paycheck to paycheck. I don't want to be the person who has to be the one asking for help once in a while from my family, I want to be there for them or some of the other good people in my life that I've met along my way have done. I'm talented I'm told by so many people whose path I cross, yet lazily I take the compliment and my talent sits on a shelf not being utilized as it should be. I'm a painter, a writer, a singer, a hard worker with great people skills from my twenty plus years in the service industry and bartending gigs I've had. I have no fear of my fellow peoples and I pretty much dont really know too much of what a stranger is. Hell Forrest Gump would taken his Nikes and got up from that bench and ran if I woulda sat next to him..LOL "MAMA NEVER TOLD ME ABOUT NOONE LIKE YOU TRAVIS" is what he'd holler back as he ran away from my outgoing persona. If you knew me, you'd get that, believe me. And I want to enter this being honest and open cause lies and deceit get ya nowhere and anyways I can't keep up with the b.s.jargon it takes to keep up with all that so I just try n stick to what I know as the truth. IM BACK IN MY SMALL HOMETOWN AFTER SO MANY YEARS AND IM STUCK. I NEED SOMEONE WHO IS WILLING TO HELP ME BECOME THE GUY THAT IS SOMEONE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS CAN TURN TO WHEN THEY ARE IN NEED, TO BE COUNTED ON OTHER THAN IN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND CARE, A CONFIDANTE, A FRIEND, A HELPING HAND, ASTUTE WORKER. I WANT THEM TO BE ABLE TO KNOW THEY CAN ASK FOR HELP EITH MONEY CAUSE ILL HAVE IT. I HAVE THE BRuns for it and I've got so many ideas written down and paintings to sell and still yet to create, I have 5 books that I have the whole storylines laid out with solid foundations and a common goal of getting back some sparks to human emotion and connection.