@Gašper Dolinar 💕

@Nirasha Udani I also deal with this, not being able to talk about spiritual things with certain family members because they have different views. They have called me crazy and a witch lol. But it's ok, our family and friends are all on their own spiritual journey. Glad you got to enjoy your brother's company 🙂

I notice that I often have irritations arise when i notice hypocrisy from people or toxic behavior. But the issue is that, even when they are not acting so toxic, these irritating energies are still there. I get irritated, angry and triggered by little things. Likely because I'm seeing and experiencing these repeated toxic behaviors. My husband often blows it off as "well that hasn't happened in a while" or that I am obsessing. He is partially right, I do obsess about it a lot. But I also notice when it hasn't happened for a while it's only because I have chosen not to be around the toxic behaviors as much, but as soon as i am i will get triggered and obsess about it for a while again. And then the part about it " not having happened in a while" goes out the window. My husband doesn't notice these things happening as much though and it doesn't affect him so I feel like I'm left dealing with it on my own. I have talked to him about this and he does defend me a lot but I think he is just wanting me to let it go more and I have a hard time with this. Sometimes I think he may be too avoidant about it. I know that my energy can also be draining for him. I know I've had inner work to do, and i could be wrong but I think a big part of being triggered is just the stress i have been dealing with living with family members that often have toxic behaviors and the dismissal about it from my husband. Even though I don't want to deal with it, I have to for now because they are helping my husband and I to get on our own feet. We are working towards being more self sufficient and independent but relying on these family members to help in the meantime. It's a struggle but it gives me incentive to keep going toward that peaceful dream home where I can truly feel safe, at peace and in more control of my own home space. My husband says I can learn to be happy anywhere, to put up my shield. But I believe that is not totally possible in an environment i don't want to be in. What about people in tougher situations, how could they remain happy? How can I be happy in a place i don't feel comfortable in? Where I often feel stressed? I continuously am working on my energy though. To keep it up as much as I can in the meantime. And to focus more on things that do make me happy. That, i believe, is my breakthrough coming out of this. Just to keep going, working on my own energy and becoming more independent despite the circumstances. But it can be draining for sure.

Welcome Kazuaki, I hope you enjoy your time here!

I have found the course extremely valuable, the best one I have come across for healing. I also like doing the live calls when i can (although for me it is also mid morning so sometimes I miss it especially if things are going on at home). It is nice to talk to you, hear your feedback and learn from you about the energies that are going around at the time. It is nice to hear others stories as well. Maybe you could do a weekly recap of the energies that have been around that week and how it affected everyone. Maybe add some astrology into it (I like learning from you about the planets and their influences on us). You seem to be knowledgeable in that area.

Thank you for sharing