9/22 Today is a portal day. I know the energies often feel strongly more positive on these days so I am using the opportunity to manifest what i want. And not only today. I decided that yes the old ways have not been working so what have I got to lose to practice being more positive? To practice feeling the feelings as if i already have what i want? To overcome the doubt? Trying to change others isn't working. But feeling the happy feelings feels better than staying stuck in that old place. I cannot tell you how much the same message has been coming in. Seeing the number 1 repeated so many times. Hearing about manifestation. Gasper, along with my husband, and many things im seeing online all saying the same message. It is coming in at an exponential rate. It's like my higher self is slapping me in the face 😂. Feel the feelings as if it is already there. I said I was ready to work on it and I meant it. I already am now. There's only going up from here. I won't let doubts overcome me. I realize the old ways arent working and the only choice now is to do this. Worked on manifesting the feeling ✅ Went for a walk in the park with my husband Gerard. ✅ Did some gigs ✅ Overcame the chaos ✅ Overcame panic ✅ I started the course over since i procrastinated so much. Watched the first couple videos recently and now I will watch day 1. I also found a cute cat logic puzzle that i enjoy playing to occupy my mind. Also, my dad who has not been talking to me lately and who i haven't seen in like 6 almost 7 years called me today apologizing lol. It was nice to hear from him. This is already a sign.

9/25 So proud of our garden this year. Harvested some pumpkins, acorn squash, zucchinis, carrots, tomatoes, peppers, a corn cob and more. ✅ Canned my first 7 jars of diced tomatoes and salsa with most ingredients from the garden. Salsa is coming out better every year 😋 ✅ Watched a full law class and currently taking time to go through the documents while learning definitions ✅ Doing spiritual work, calming panic and rewatched the 8 day course videos up to day 2. Going over my vision to make any updates ✅ Researching alternative house building and land to buy ✅ Writing down in my journal at the end of the days to manifest dream ✅

Right now my dream is to get some land for me and my husband to live in peace together and start our family. Where I don't feel abused controlled or restricted by others like family with lower energies. A place free from government control where we can build an alternative home and whatever we want on our land. To feel free happy and joyful more passionate and to hold that in my every day life. To be surrounded more by people with higher energies who are respectful and more positive. Where there is plenty of space and i can grow a beautiful garden and trees every year. I have no idea how i will get there or even get the money to get there. But it is my dream.

Every day of my life. Every day since childhood has felt like a challenge and often times i wondered how I would get through. I learned how spiritual i really was, outside of religion. I learned that the things i liked deep down actually have more meaning than i was led on to believe.

I have trouble finishing things and sticking to them in general so ive only Done most of the 8 day course since i started but want to push myself more to do it

Wow interestng! Galactic warrior so awesome! 😎