Okay, I posted a not-so-great post on Substack last night. So I thought. It had a subscribe box in the middle, and I had to go to work and did not have the time to figure it out, so I just did it imperfectly and posted it. I was just in my Substack to post something, which is sitting in limbo at the moment, because I came over here to post this because I am in shock!!! I went from 2 subscribers to 749 literally OVERNIGHT!!!!!!! I am in shock. And truth be told, a bit nervous about that because I know that the folks there are super smart and educated. I wanted to immediately come over here to share this because I have never seen anything like this! I am amazed! Thank you, @Vickie Helm, for pushing me to move over there and focus on that platform. That was some of the best advice I have ever received. I am so grateful to be part of this group and for the people here.

Last night while reading my work, all I could see were my mistakes on posts, articles, and in the programs I had made. My mind reviewed how many times people DM me about a mistake in a post they want me to correct. My eye for detail just kept noticing how often these mistakes were happening. I could feel my face become flushed and my inner critic having a talk with me and I didn’t like it. I had to break the conversation going on in my head. I realized the new year does not ask you to become someone else. It just gives you a clean edge of paper and watches what you do with the first line. Most people start by trying to write a masterpiece… And that is exactly how the page stays blank. I’ve learned that perfection is not a high standard. It is just a safest hiding place. It lets you say, “I care deeply,” about what other people think, without letting anyone witness you caring deeply. It lets you hold your vision in a sealed jar where nothing can touch it, including life. Real devotion is different. Devotion is not intensity. It is consent.Consent to be seen mid-formation. Consent to be a beginner in public.Consent to make something that has your fingerprints on it. If you want this year to be different, stop asking, “What is my perfect plan.” Ask a stranger question. “What truth am I willing to live out loud, even when my voice shakes or people see my mistakes.” Because your work does not need to be flawless to be holy…It needs to be inhabited. My one sentence for the year: “Starting the new year with devotion turns your intentions into motion… one honest step at a time.” When I feel stopped, am procrastinating, or avoiding… I just ask myself. 1. What part of me benefits when I keep “preparing” instead of beginning? 2. If I just let it be real, what would I publish, say, offer, or ask for this week? 3. What would change if my measure of success was sincerity, not polish? I have to be able to let my devotion lead the way and break any habit that has been holding me back.

Creating Gratitude, welcoming our new members, sharing highlights of the year, celebrating each other and the wins we had,

It's been an interesting week! I did get that article published just now! Yeah me. https://medium.com/@SusanSatNam/why-the-same-patterns-keep-repeating-in-your-life-and-what-theyre-asking-of-you-8f7c72d09360

Yesterday I had a client that wrote me a check. I didn't look at the check until I went to the bank and realized she made it out incorrectly, so I couldn't deposit it. I also realized how uncomfortable I feel when someone hands me money and I acknowledge it. I say thank you to them, but it feels rude and uncomfortable to actually look at it or if they hand me cash to count it like it's something bad, wrong, selfish. There is a belief that I shouldn't take pleasure in the fact that I am receiving this money. If I had taken a moment to look at it I could have saved us both the grief of fixing the problem. It is my intention to take pleasure in receiving money! I am going to bring mindfulness to this exchange. Thank you, thank you, thank you. What is your experience?