I don't really know how to describe this past week... except for full of emotion. It's been a long time since I've been so frazzled, stressed out, angry, and discouraged. But I think it's important to talk about these things, knowing they are a part of the HUMAN experience of living in a sinful, fallen world. This week: I had to detach and focus on me. My family. Put my own oxygen mask on first, so that I could assist others (in flight attendant speak). It's important to differentiate between focusing on ourselves from a selfish-standpoint vs. a self-care standpoint. When we talk about serving others in business, we CANNOT effectively serve if we aren't taking care of ourselves. This is something the Lord is teaching me A LOT recently... ...and why I will never be the business coach that tells you to burn the candle from both ends. ...why my program was designed with a 7th day of rest. ...why I will never tell you to hustle your way into Holiness. You are called to TAKE ACTION, but you are NOT called to handle it all. You are called to surrender. And that's what I had to do this week. TRUST that He has this and there's a reason for it all to be happening, even though it doesn't make any sense and I don't see the bigger picture just yet. Back story: I have a personal bias against hospitals and the medical care system. My distrust started with how my grandmother was treated in her final years, and I witnessed/learned a lot of things about healthcare that I VERY MUCH disagree with... including the pursuit of money. ...it's probably why this translates into my distrust with "get rich quick" business opportunities. "Slap a diagnosis" and "prescribe a pill" seems to be the preferred method. Not only was my mom discharged with a medication she CANNOT TAKE, I just spent three days in the hospital only to end up with a chronic-diagnosis, even though my pathology reports show NOTHING as of today. I was discharged with a medication I cannot take breastfeeding (and my milk supply has dwindled immensely after this). My medical records were incomplete. I had to get a patient advocate involved. A dietician confirmed this could be due to a recent diet change, but no one wants to touch this. Instead, they want to start me on infusions for a condition I DO NOT HAVE, and now I'm dealing with the aftermath of what this entails.