God is good! I came through surgery just fine!

Hello my school family I know I have not been as active as I usually am but I’m still fighting a good fight. I’m still being strong. I been dealing with some health issues lately some new some old, but we don’t take care of your body and sacrifice your body to drugs and alcohol. When you get older this is the outcome. I will be going on disability for a few months to get my body and mine and my health together, but blessings and strength and love to each and everyone of you guys you are all beautiful creatures that God created. Stay strong continue to fight.

Does anyone else ever go through lack of interest kinda like you know you gotta do work you know you got things you have to get done but yet you have no interest or ambition to do either one. I have found that through my sobriety and my recovery that there are days when I just don’t have any interest to do anything I just get so wrapped up in the calm and peace of my life that I don’t want to do anything to disrupt that. Now, yes, of course I am dealing with a course of depression, but I am on medication for all of that. I don’t really think it is my depression because I don’t feel sad. I don’t feel bad. I don’t feel happy. I just feel what they so-called say is normal. Maybe it’s just because of so many years that I fought my addiction and then I went into my sobriety and that took a while and then now I’m in my recovery and even though yes I don’t drink, its just Work every day to be sober and I’m OK with that. I’m not sure really why I’m on this rant today but I just wanted to throw it out there get peoples thoughts.

Well today is the first time I will be going to a birthday party in a year. I can’t miss it because it is my God son and he is turning 4 🤗 him so precious lol but I feel strong I already told my best friend if they start drinking and getting out of hand I will be leaving early with my child. Wish me luck school family, but I don’t need it. Self-control is much more stronger after the week I had. Peace and love

Skool family I have had the worst week today being the worst!! I started having a pity party for myself , I want to give in I wanted to give up I’ve been overstimulated anxiety killing me and I could just taste the burn of tequila going down my throat. I want it so bad but I stayed strong and I stayed true to myself and I’m so proud that I did not give in to my temptation as I’m writing this right now I’m still having an urge to get a bottle and I’m still having an urge to just drink till I pass out, but I can’t do that just because life is hard right now I have people counting on me. I have people looking up to me and I’m counting on myself so I count this as a win. Have a good night everyone and a wonderful weekend. Peace love and strength 🫀 Ps Everyday won’t be easy .