This vision/purpose that I see deep within my heart is on time. I’m not late…I Am Right On Time. This is something that I literally was talking to the Lord about yesterday in my car. Thank you Lord, I just say thank you.

☑️What concept, revelation, or philosophy are you currently developing in your own thinking or life? I’ve been deeply drawn to the concept of “seeds.” I’m recognizing that everything, what we think, say, speak, and do, is a seed. Each one is planted, whether intentionally or not, and in time, it will produce fruit. Whether good or bad, what is sown will rise to the surface. No matter the season, the principle of the seed remains constant. I’m have been made more aware that every moment carries the potential to plant something, and that truth has become foundational in how I live and move through life now. More than ever. ☑️What season of life do you feel you are in right now? What is this season teaching and developing in you? I believe I am in a taught and developing both refining and revealing. Refining, in the sense that I am learning to confront and unlearn old thought patterns, habits, and emotional triggers that attempt to resurface. Things rooted in past experiences or internal battles. It feels like an internal work where I am becoming more sensitive to anything within or around me that is incorrect, misaligned, or no longer aligned with truth. At the same time, I believe I am in a season of revealing as well. I believe that I am developing a stronger, more anchored identity in Christ being formed within me, understanding the alignment in my creativity which is slowly becoming clearer to me, the sharpening of discernment, and feeling the stirring of the gifts that have been placed inside of me all this time. I am also learning to embrace my voice again with confidence and intention. learning to develop in this area again and not shrink back or second-guess. (It’s can seem to not be easy, but I trust that with the Lord’s help, I can do all things through Christ.)

Whenever I feel discouraged, the main thing I do is go straight to my prayer closet. Whether I’m at work, at home, or even in my car, I’ve learned and am still learning that I must pour everything out to the Lord, my heart, my thoughts, and my concerns. God already knows what I’m facing, and He understands far more than I ever could. There is a garden down the street from my job where I often go walking (when it’s warm). During those walks, I take time to meditate, pray, breathe deeply, and simply rest in the presence of the Lord. It helps me slow down, refocus my heart, and trust Him more deeply. There are times when I can be hard on myself, but now, instead of staying in that place, I’ve learned, and I’m still learning to give it to the Lord. I try to be mindful of my thought life and not allow negative thinking to take over, which could take me into depression. (Both of my parents dealt with that badly.) I’ve learned that 80% of our thoughts can lean negative, so I intentionally work toward developing healthier and more faith-filled thinking patterns now. I try to look at situations through a different lens and ask what the Lord might be doing in this/that moment. Sometimes the process is difficult, but I try to be reminded that it may simply be a time of pruning where one of the fruits of the Spirit within me is being pruned and developed. I have kept encouraging messages and scriptures close in a folder to remind me who I am in Christ and to strengthen my faith during discouraging moments. I’m so thankful that even when I feel like quitting, the Lord will ALWAYS allow a coworker, friend, stranger, or family member to come to me in confidence about something they are going through. It never fails. It always makes me cry. Instead of ignoring them, those moments encourage me. They remind me that I am still usable for God’s glory, that He desires to use me for His glory. To plant good seeds into their lives and share words that speak directly to their situation. I love the joy He brings through my nieces and nephews and through the youth the Lord has allowed me to pour into over the years. Their presence always brings a huge smile to my face, and they often remind me why I was born for such a time as this. That alone lifts my spirit no matter what I’m going through. Through it all, the Lord keeps making a way to show how much He loves me that He is still working on me, in me, and through me. And as the lyrics say, “There is so much more to the story…God is not finished with me yet.” I just have to keep pressing and trusting despite it all.

🔘What did you learn about yourself? To be honest, I realized that I lost some confidence in myself when it comes to posting on social media. I’m still learning how to stop overthinking and overcome the fear and mental battles that came from a previous season of my life. Sometimes I find myself asking questions like: Are my motives right? I pray this encourages someone rather than harming others again. Was that the Holy Spirit, my soul, or my flesh posting? It’s still a process for me, but I’m learning and growing through it. 🙏🏾 🔘How did it feel to show up consistently? It felt like a necessary push. I showed up even though I was afraid. 🔘Did it stretch you, grow you, or challenge your confidence? Yes, it definitely stretched me. There was growth happening within me, even though I know I still have more growing to do especially when it comes to not worrying so much about what people think. Posting on social media challenged my confidence, but it also helped me face that challenge. 🔘What surprised you about the process? What surprised me most is that it feels much easier for me to encourage and uplift people in person than it does on social media. 🔘And the big question… are you going to keep going? Yes, I would like to keep going. Instead of posting every day, I may post every other day.

@Portia Williams Thank you. You as well.

Hallelujah. Amen.