For the past 19 years of my life I have been living outside of my self heavily reliant on addiction to lust and I have always thought I knew of my ego and that I have had total control of it but.. that turns out to be false. I actually now realize that my ego is the side of my self that I don’t want to let go.. but I know I have to and will because if I don’t I will hold my self back from life and everything in it I want to experience. I am a musician and I love it. I love making music to touch and heal other people’s souls that have been through the same kind of damage that I know. This I feel, is my true purpose but I feel a certain part of me. My ego, is restricting me from that change and growth.