Hiya I'm Sabrina. A single mom of 3 girls, one who is developmentally disabled, but raised 5 kids altogether, (2 boys were my ex-husband's). I'm a work in progress. I have a long history of abuse, depression, anxiety, Stockholm syndrome, PTSD, bi-polar and severe trauma. Recently experienced multiple losses of a sister, cousin, uncle, stepmother, both biological parents and my fiancé. The last was my fiancé and it put me in life paralysis. I became homeless with my daughters and couldn't go back to work. My inner voice is a c***t. So I'm trying to figure out how to move forward and how to have nicer self talk. Being told most of your life by the people who love you that you're a piece of shit and everything you touch turns to shit and then you have this life that turns out shitty doesn't make a person feel good. Yet, I still try to think positive, i use manners, I even fed, housed and even clothed my enemies. I help others more than I help myself. Everyone comes to me for advice yet i can't advise my own self. But there's something inside me that can't get the crap i grew up hearing out of my head. It was beaten into me and my brain physically. not just from my parents but a few relationships used me as a human punching bag. As a youngster I had no adults in my life that i could trust or i could go to for real guidance. My mother didn't exist in my life until after my daughter was born, I was 17. My dad an abusive alcoholic. So many deaths, can't grieve, the last one hurt so much i lost myself. I am slowly dying inside. I scream for help yet no one hears me. I'm not invisible but I'm treated as such. Don't i matter just like everyone else does? Why is it i have helped so many in life, including my own enemies! I have fed, clothed, given money to and even housed. Yet I'm here all alone 😔 I'm still fighting, crawling to get into a better place. Damn at this point I'd even beg, for help, for a home, to get back to the real me. Who can i turn to? God has forsaken me. This cannot be the path he wanted for me. No way! Yet here i am still broken, still battered, still trying, still loosing 😢

For a few years now, I've found myself questioning a lot of things. Government,purpose, relationships, who we are as a race, things that I feel are very clouded. I've never been a "book smart" person but I have a lot of "sensless intelligence ", and until recently, was fine with it I try to be a good human, I believe sometimes right is not legal, and legal, is not always right. I believe in defending the weak and fighting for what I believe, and after this quiz, what am I truly fighting for? What is my purpose in this moment in time. I had an accident last week involving myself, my bike and 2 parking curbs. I should have lost, atleast my mobility, if not my life. Hit one, flew, literally threw the air, until landing face first into 2nd parking curb in between my left eye and temple . I wirgj around 200lbs, and estimate I had atleast 5' off the ground,Got up and walked away it hasn't even been a week and I am almost completely healed , and I am not understanding any of this.and now I find this community, and I hope to find some type of clue to any of the things my life has experienced. Thank you

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