(not really but it's a prominent topic in today's rant) Curses... Are interesting lol they can mean words like "fuck" or "dammit" or the word could be an expression for something you got yourself into that you realized that would literally eat up your time 🥴 or, or if we're going into the fantasy world curses are the things witches cast on other people.... To be fair, I'm going to be blunt here and say that I side with the witches in most stories, they're just kinda misunderstood hermits 😅 and all they really want to do is to be left alone to brew their potions and spin magical yarn; but here come these damn soldiers and peasants (among other things) trespassing and spoiling the witch's land! And another thing! Witches weren't born evil, they really weren't... They were born with the same potential to be good or evil but apparently fairy tale spinners forget that bit, that it's oftentimes our environment and how we grew up that will more often than not shape how we live or experience life, you have a good experience with your peers and whatever you aren't soured by the damn circumstances you often have a more pleasant disposition and the opposite of that causes people to sour and turn their backs on the concept of acceptance. Often enough people are not friendly with differences because "oh, we don't understand why they're like this" so... Instead of getting to know people you assume they should be ostracized and demonized? Wow, I mean wow. I guess hate is easier than empathy? (It isn't really) Empathy and love works better in the long run 🌱 Below is this weird wee bit of writing I did a bit ago 🔽 "Hate is a strong word, but so is love. Both are intoxicating and addictive like hard drugs; yet hate seems to be the cheap drugs whereas love is like that high octane crystal meth that'll make your teeth fall out. And yet we seem to love the cheap cocaine that's probably a faulty batch that doesn't give you the same high although because of the faulty mixture it's more addictive.

(Excuse the Ozzy Osbourne reference) Humans are squishy hot messes... they're confusing and quite frankly and this might sound weird but I kinda see humans as puzzles that I want to figure out, they're glutenous and self seeking motherfuckers which I guess is just by design (heh design 😅 this was unintentional) but they're also quite intriguing little things from hobbies to dreams, that's what I love most about getting to know these creatures, I had this convo with @Jes Divine in messages and she said something about the journey to self love being the "Greatest human journey" and my response was incredibly flippant and I said that it was the "Greatest most tedious journey in existence" it was just a flippant response to something positive. The world sucks 😑 like it really doesn't but why must society and expectations weigh so heavily on us!? Sure we have the inate want to belong because that's how we survived in the beginning making tribes, groups, clans (because there's strength in numbers) but when did individuality become so heavily shoved on us? Like for example kids are born with individuality BUT they also aren't assholes and entitled about it they just exist and try to make friends everywhere? Where did THAT form of individuality go? Did it get eaten like humanity's empathy apparently did? Please somebody fucking enlighten me! Apologies that was harsh sounding 😓 but quite literally though, where did that go because that's the individuality that I think is most important, you have the individuality but you also aren't a pompous asshole and you can find community. And for FUCKS SAKE leave your judgement at the fucking door cause you cannot judge someone because you're only seeing what they want you to see, people in public are not the same people in private because masks 🎭 come in all different sizes and shapes, same with text messages! I'm not the same in text messages as I am over the phone or a video call, I'm probably doing some weird self stimulatory behavior while texting you but the second I'm on the phone you get to see me and all the bells and whistles meaning all my wild hand gestures and frequent shifts in my seat (I sometimes have a hard time getting comfortable) are plainly displayed. But anyway the point I'm trying to make is that masks exist and you can't judge someone because you really don't know who they are or they're experiences, that saying "put yourself in my shoes" you can't do that really accurately because you aren't that person same with the "Walk a mile in his/her shoes" can't do that because you have different temperaments and past experiences but for the love of GOD have some decency and try to EMPATHIZE (empathize being the key word here!)

Have you wanted to find other Projectors? Or your specific type? We have a new Classroom Space! Check out the video! If I missed your chart... Let me know!!! I'll add you! @Heather Wilson thanks for this suggestion! I got a couple other requests right after! We must all be vibing! 🥳 @Blu In man suggested using Skool Live to record YouTube videos and other screen share videos... I gave it a try to see how it looks! 🥳⬇️ Super easy! I'm going to use Skool Live with the screen share to record a new welcome video! So there's your random community management tip of the day! 🤣

Soooo, I had a bit of a clear moment today I was y'know doing the usual stuff and my brain wasn't overflowing for once which felt so strange! Cause I feel like my brain is just kind of like those people's inboxes that are always full like you need an email or something but that stupid "Inbox Full" notification pops up and you kinda just mutter curse words while clicking delete repeatedly. My brain is full of SPAM (not the salty canned ham) but like the ads and whatever else pops up in one's email. But anyway sorry for that tangent, but I realized that I was overwhelmed, but not like the bad overwhelmed where you want to cry and dig a hole somewhere and never resurface but the good kind of overwhelm because (and it took me a moment to realize this) that my soul or whatever you call it was actually in my body and in reality like I could feel everything and it felt really good since I was outside and I had omitted the shoes. It felt strangely really good to be in reality for once because I'm always in my head. Being in one's head for extensive periods is scary and it can also become very, very addictive and it gets a little y'know scary, not fun anyway the human body is quite an advanced organism: we as a species can think and function like no other living thing, but another thing is that the human life/condition is overwhelming and absolutely nothing like we expect when we enter it, it's so overwhelming and it gets scary and so much more difficult than anything we as humans have ever experienced but most people just say "oh that's just life!" But to be honest "just life" is quite literally very difficult to navigate especially if one isn't equipped with the tools to navigate this nightmare. It's kind of like a building a house: you need tools to build lets say your house okay so like a hammer and nails is bare minimum which is what some get. Then you have others with all the doodads from miter saws to electric sanders, I feel like I'm one of those people that got the hammer and nails then was told to just "wing it" but my brain doesn't really work like that, it craves the structure it wants more tools and the blueprints but when I ask, nobody seems to have the tools I need so to speak so I end up spiralling trying to build this house out of nothing but some wood, a hammer and nails which usually is really overstimulating and just makes me want to throw the tools that I have away and say "fuck it I'd rather build a mud hut" but I really don't want to build a mud hut I want to build a sturdy house so I'm stuck between wanting a house and struggling to build this house because I only have a hammer and nails...

I got new books today!! Half-Price Books visit happened which was great since that's one of my favorite stores in existence 📚 Also not a celebration but I've had this thing rattling around in my brain since learning about human design and whatnot and as you can tell by the picture I'm a bit of a bookworm that devours fantasy and dystopian fiction mostly so my over reactive imagination was like all the different types (projector, generator, manifestor etc) kinda sound like I dunno like tribes or communities of people you would find it you were reading a fantasy story ✨ but that could literally just be me. but role wise I think I dunno projectors would probably be like your historians, astrologers and the jobs that require the deep pondering whereas generators and manifestors would be like in leadership roles, uhhh architects, bards and travelers so in the end you have a really well rounded character cast and community within the story but I digress. (Disclaimer: I'm a bit of a nutball 😅 so do with that what you will)